Recapturing You [RCS#1]

Chapter 41

Light Colors

"Dem! We can explain-" agap ni Thrym na inabot ang t-shirt sa sahig para mabilisang maisuot.

"Shut up!" I glared at him. "I thought you're nice! Akala ko maayos na tayo! Why the hell did you do this? And of all people! You're having an affair with my sister!" malakas kong sigaw sa kabila ng panghihina. "Bakit n'yo nagawa sa'kin 'to?"

My whole body crumbled, my knees terribly shook in mixture of anger and painful surprise. The sides of my eyes were hot. I could hardly catch my breath. I was seething with so much frustration. Bakit nila 'to nagawa?

"I'm sorry, Dem!"

I shifted my cold eyes to my sister.

She was my best buddy. I trusted her and I loved her dearly... how could she do this to me? Wala nang mas sasakit pa roon.

Seeing her sitting on the soft bed, covering her body with the white blanket as she held it tightly over her chest made me so furious. Her sobs made me tremble with wrath. Though I could tell how sincere she was, I wasn't sure if I could forgive her right away.

I got hurt not because I love Thrym, I got hurt because I was stabbed in the back by the persons I considered important to me.

Umalis ako ng gabing 'yon para makapagtago. Wala akong pakialam kung hindi ako makauwi ang basta ang gusto ko lang, gumaan ang pakiramdam ko.

Pinatay ko rin ang cellphone para hindi nila ako matawagan. I was not yet ready to talk to my sister, I didn't know what to do with her. I was mad and I could not promise not to hurt her.

Lily searched for me everywhere 'til her car collided with a ten wheeler truck... River of guilt gushed out from within. She was coated with her fresh and crimson blood. She seemed in pain even at her unconscious visage.

"This is all your fault, Demeter!" the thunderous voice of my Dad echoed all over the white room.

Lily didn't make it. I cried so hard until my throat burnt dry. My parents were simmering with anger. They'd just lost their favorite daughter.

"Kung hindi matigas ang ulo mo, kung hindi ka nagpapagabi sa labas, hindi ka sana hahanapin ng Ate mo! If you've just stayed at home, your sister won't be searching for you. Hindi sana siya maaksidente!" mamula-mula na ang mata ni Daddy habang dinuduro ako.

Nakakatakot, mas lalong lumakas ang mga iyak ko. Ang mas nakapagpawasak pa sa mundo ko ay nang lumuhod sa akin si Daddy. I hated it. Parents are not meant to kneel down before their children. They didn't comfort me. He didn't take back his accusations. It was like being buried alive. I was breathless... pained... weak.

"Tell me! Were you partying all night? O naglalakwatsa ka? May iba ka bang kalaguyo maliban kay Thrym kaya dis-oras ng gabi nasa labas ka?" desperadong paratang ni Daddy habang niyuyugyog ako.

Sobrang sakit na inisip niyang ganun akong klaseng babae. They are my parents, they should know me more than anyone else in this world. Siguro impluwensya na rin simula n'ong sawayin ko sila, anim na taon na ang nakalipas. I was hoping that Mommy would try to calm my father and tell him not to put all the blame on me. O kaya sabihin man lang kay Daddy na dahan-dahanin naman ako. Ngunit bigo ako nang mag-iwas lang si Mommy ng tingin habang umiiyak.

Walang lumalabas na salita sa aking bibig. Lalong tumigas ang mukha ni Daddy, nagbaga ang mata sa galit nang wala akong maisagot.

"Punyeta ka, Demeter! You should have encountered that accident instead!"