Tragedy Strikes

[4] Am I Ready?

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"You ready?" Hance said

I wasn't yet ready to meet up with my past, but yet in this present its now happening, this day is my preparation for my only future, As i said, We got everything planned out. This maybe too soon but i cant hold it in anymore, i already want to see their faces, not cry for them but to make them suffer.

I dont know if Christian already told the others about me, I hope not, It'll ruin everything, It'll ruin my surprise. I dont want that to happen, I have preapred for this for a whole now and I cant let the people in my past buy my present and fucking destroy my future, no, I wont let that happen.

"Uhm, Yeah, What time will we leave?"

What, time, will, we, LEAVE? My heart was pumping so hard that if i could jump and go on with the rhythm, i cant handle it, Im too nervous but i know i cant. Leave? Maybe, It isn't the right time? Maybe im taking this too fast, There's a lot of time, I can always schedule whenever im ready, right?

"Whenever you guys are ready, Why what's wrong."

He's another problem, He's just to fast for me to handle, Its like we've been together since I was born that he already knows my every single move. Whenever I have problems He always say 'Why what's wrong' or 'Is there something bothering you?' In the last sentence, I cant help but think, how does he know me that well now?

"Nothing, Im fine."

I lied, I glared at myself, Im so annoyed right now.

"I know you aren't, Dont lie Claire."

Yes, He's to fast for me right now. I cant lie right now, He knows what im doing.

"Are you reading my mind?"

I have to to change the topic, I have no choice! It's either I answer all his questions or I change what were talking about, And I chose option two but the catch is, If he'll bring it up again. I have no choice than to answer.

"Heck no, And answer my question."

And he brings it up. Alright here it goes.

"I'm worried. I worried that I may not be that strong to face them again, And another thing, My friend, Christian saw me when I escaped in the hospital I was confined, I don't know if he already talked to others about me, I'm worried, that's all."

Not a bad response eh? Those situation arent all. I have lots and lots but I can't afford risking it. I just have to figure it out myself. If I'm strong, I can do it, I can't be weak, not infront of my past.

"I'm ready, What about you?" He said in a calmed voice

"I'll try."

He kissed me on the forehead and after a few minutes, Rhianne was done preparing her things, Hance started the car and I felt the engine come alive with a vibration in my body and sending a vibration inside me. The radio was one and I don't know who turned it, but a song played

Woke up too late for the train

Routine is always the same

Another day in a life like any other

I ran straight trough the rain

Saw your face when I felt the flame

Both knew it wasn't a day like any other

We're in a moment now

I can't believe how

One touch, and suddenly I need you

Tough luck, won't you tell me that it ain't true

If you're gonna push me

Promise you'll break my fall

Oh, hold me close as I

Breathe in, breathe out

Breathe in, breathe out

I'm on the edge

Just take me now

And if you'll gonna push me

Then promise you'll break my fall

Face down, I hit the floor

Nothing to hide anymore

I've tried, but what is use ya

I was always

Looking from a Birdseye view

Dreaming of when I'd find you

But I know I will never be the same

We're in a moment now

I can't believe how

One touch, and suddenly I need you

Tough luck, won't you tell me that it ain't true

If you're gonna push me

Promise you'll break my fall

Oh, hold me close as I

Breathe in, breathe out

Breathe in, breathe out

I'm on the edge

Just take me now

And if you'll gonna push me

Then promise you'll break my fall

Breathe in, breathe out

Like a drug I can't stop

Need you here, need you now

Cause you've got my heart

Breathe in, breathe out

Baby, forever free falling, free falling

One touch, and suddenly I need you

Tough luck, won't you tell me that it ain't true

If you're gonna push me

Promise you'll break my fall

Oh, hold me close as I

Breathe in, breathe out

Breathe in, breathe out

I'm on the edge

Just take me now

And if you'll gonna push me

Then promise you'll break my fall

Then promise you'll break my fall

That song is strong, It revolves on my life, I never knew someone is also suffering the same as I do. It's hard to think of that because I thought the whole universe is against me. I didn't know why I thought of it, maybe just because I thought I didn't fit in.

Where do I fit in?

After two and half hours maybe, We already reached the academy, I fell asleep and Hance woke me up, I was cold, My eyes are wet and my hair is also messy, When I got down the car, I was shocked in what I saw, Is this really the academy now?

The gates are rusted.

The plants are dying.

The wind is cold.

Blood is everywhere.

The whole place is not what I left, This place used to be a happy place, What happened? Sure, Everything changed, But what made this like this? What is happening to the academy? Is there a problem running this place? I never imagined that this sort of thing will happen.

"Janeia?"