She's My Girlfriend!

Chapter 30: Afraid of!

I was obviously the type that would meet a girl/guy, hook up for a max of a week, then move on to the new piece of meat.
I thought it would be the same with her, but as I got to know her, spending way more time with her than I have with my own friends, I found myself changing dramatically in 2 week's time. The idea of just wanting sex was actually grossing me out.

When I pulled in my driveway, shut and locked my car, I didn't notice that her car had been parked by the curb. I walked in the house, noting that the time was past 11, and headed up to my room.  

Once my lights were turned on I nearly fell over in fright and awe as I was looking straight at her now, the girl who had been on my mind for the past 3 days straight.

"Hey... Uhhh... your mom let me in. She said you'd be home by midnight or so..." Her voice sounded scared as I watched her stand up from my window bench, walking over to me slowly.

"How long... have you uh, been waiting?" I asked, wanting to smack myself for sounding like a scared 15 year old. She gave me a small smile and shrugged her shoulders.

"Probably 2 hours...? I don't know I lost track of time I guess." She said as she walked up to me now, no more than 2 feet away from me. I held back the urge to wrap my arms around her.

"Why?" Was the only thing that came to my mind. I watched as she bit her lip in thought. I went over to my bed to sit, hopefully not implying something but just wanting to sit down because my head was lightheaded and I was scared I'd most likely look stupid. To my surprise though, she took a seat next to me.

"I don't know. I felt like an asshole just leaving you on Friday. I didn't want you to think I was using you and stuff, because I'm not." I was confused.

"Using me for what?"

"Watching Noel...?" She thought that's why I wanted to be around her? I sighed as I laid down in frustration.

"I didn't even think that. Not once had it come across my mind."

"You're really fragile, aren't you?" It took me a moment to fully understand what she had asked and I still didn't get it.

"Uhm, what?" She smiled as she laid down next to me, her head propped up in one hand.

"Fragile, you try to hide your emotions so people can't see how you're really feeling." I swallowed the lump in my throat.

"And how am I really feeling then?"

"I think you're nervous and scared." She said with confidence etched in her voice.

"Over what?"

"Over, being close to someone."

----oppppsss--- no intimate scene for now---