Beautiful Disaster

Ch.7

The next day I was a ball of nerves.

For some reason I kept thinking of all the things that could possibly go wrong tonight. Which resulted into me having atleast 3 panic attacks. So it's safe to say this wasn't one of my best days.

Nevertheless, Dina had still managed to help me stay sort of optimistic and calm. Giving me hope that maybe I would have some fun tonight even though having fun was what I was afraid of.

When Alec picked me up at 7 just like he promised, I slightly calmed down. Getting picked up on time was a good sign.

"You look nice tonight." He said awkwardly never taking his eyes off the road.

I was in a pair of denim jeans, a blue t-shirt and my black bomber jacket. Since I didn't know where we going I decided to play it safe with my newly cleaned converses.

I decided this was safe because if we had to walk my feet wouldn't hurt or if it turns out that Alec was a mass murderer than I could run without having to take my shoes off.

"Thanks. You look nice too." And honestly I meant it.

He was dressed in a simple white tee, black jeans and had on a pair of black and white vans. We were sort of matching but he made it look like he was wearing a thousand bucks.

I always admired boys who so effortlessly rocked a plain white tee. It was actually one of the things that attracted me to Carter but it was something about Alec and the way he wore it that made me feel warm.

I stared at him drive and realized I didn't really know him at all.

Alec was a mystery. I mean he had stories about him but so does everyone in this town.

The people in this town only care about the tragedies and the horror stories. You never hear about how Jimmy from down the block saved a little boy by jumping in front of a car for him. No, you only hear about how Jimmy overdosed a few months later because he got addicted to the pain medication the doctors gave him.

You see this town has a way of shaping people to how they seem like but not who they really are.

So what did I really know about Alec? The answer was absolutely nothing and that made me uneasy.

I've always been the person who liked to know firsthand what I was getting myself into. I hated surprises because for me a surprise meant anything good. When inviting someone new into my life I needed to know them or atleast feel like I knew them.

It took a lot for me to trust people or open up that's why Dina is the only one I surrounded myself with. I had acquaintances, yes, but she was the only one I truly trusted.

I turned my head out the window watching the signs go by.

I never let anyone into my bubble and Alec was no exception. It was too risky to fully trust him when he  only had horror stories but then again wasn't I somehow already trusting him? I mean here I am in a car with a boy I barely know, on my way to a unknown location and I'm a wiling participant.

This was clear sign as to him invading my bubble without a care in the world and I've only really started barely talking to him 2 weeks ago.

He had managed to convince Dina he had good intentions, which was never for easy anyone. Especially after the whole Carter and Kayla incident.
She's been especially wary on anybody who tries to invade our space but a few conversations in and she's already pushing me to the wolves or better yet the wolf.

This newfound realization had me feeling anxious again.

I was supposed to be avoiding trouble for the rest of the school year, yet here I am with one of the biggest douchebags in this town basically asking for something bad to happen.