Beautiful Disaster

Ch.42

"Wow so you really have gone insane." I say to my best friend as I watch her struggle to drag me to my car.

"Come on we need to go talk to him." She huffs.

"I think you're convincing the wrong person to go talk to Alec. Let's not forget your boyfriend is the one who ate his fists." I say in a whispered yell.

To outsiders we probably looked like crazy people.

"Yes and they are going to talk but you two need to talk first because Marco won't talk to him until the two of you make up." She says groaning once we reach the car. "Gosh it felt like I was pulling an elephant." I left out an offended gasp.

"I am not a elephant."

"I didn't say you were. I just said you felt like one." I glared at her.

"That attitude is not going to make me go and talk to him. As a matter of fact, nothing is going to make me go and talk to him. I don't know how people don't know that we aren't together anymore but they will soon. Now I would like to get home because I have to learn the song the band and I are singing."

"Wait the band? You're singing Friday?" She says surprised.

I nod. "Marco didn't tell you? He asked me last night." I say and she shakes her head. "Well I'm pretty sure it was last minute. He probably only asked because he wanted to get my mind off everything that has been happening." I see her face get soft.

"I know lately I've been so busy with Marco we barely have time for each other. I'm sorry. I should've been there for you the other night when you saw Alec with that girl." She says.

"Don't worry about it. I love that you're happy. So please don't every apologize for that. Besides I haven't been around much for you too. Alec use to take up most my time anyways." I say before walking to the drivers seat and getting in.

"And now?" She says once she's settled in the passenger seat.

"And now what?"

"He use to take up most of your time and I'm not around as often so what do you do?" She asks and I started to drive.

I wanted to lie to her. I wanted to tell her I was okay and she didn't need to worry about me because I was fine but I couldn't. I mean of course I was fine with her not being around as much and of course I was fine with being alone but I wasn't okay with Alec being gone.

"Do you want the truth or do you want me to sugarcoat it?" I say and she gives me a look so I give her the truth. "I cry." I whisper.

"You cry?" She repeats.

"I cry in the morning when I don't wake up next to him. I cry in the night when his arms aren't around me. I cry when I see you and Marco because I'm so used to him being around. I cry when I look at his mothers house. I cry when I look at the teddy bear he gave me. I cry when I look at his clothes in my room. I just cry, cry, and cry some more and it sucks because I haven't ran out of tears yet. I just keep making more." I say and the car becomes silent.

Neither one of us speaks again as we pul into my driveway. She was the first one out and she practically runs towards my side before pulling me into a hug.

"I love you." She says hugging me tightly.

"I love you too." I say hugging her back.

We stay like that for a second before I hear someone clear their throat behind me. We unwrap our arms from each other and look towards the voice. Once I see who it is my body tenses.

What the fuck?

"Hi I don't think we've formally met. I'm Serena." She says putting her hand out but I don't take it.