LOVING THE BAD BOY

Chapter 60 Reminisce

"How have you been?" My mom asked while sipping a cup of coffee. "Fine I guess" I exhaled placing my hand up to my cheek with my elbow on the table.
"You don't look so good" She raised a brow placing her hands on her hips. "What's going on?" She exhaled sliding out a stool sitting across from me in the kitchen.

"Danny's in town today" I whispered under my breath chipping some nail polish off of my nail as I slowly looked up at her. "Sooo?" She cleared her throat folding her hands. "I just don't want to run into him" I began ranting, "I don't think I'm ready and I really really like Mason and I don't understand" I gulped breathing a bit heavily overwhelmed. I ran my fingers through my hair as I took a deep breath looking at my mom who was smiling softly.

"What?" I asked as she shook her head. "Nothing" She exhaled blinking a few times. "I liked Danny" She said as I nodded slowly looking at her. "He meant well he was a good kid" She said sipping her coffee again. "You're young" She licked her lips tilting her head. "He was your first love it's normal" She explained as I smiled small sighing listening.

"Your father was my" She paused pressing her lips together quoting with her fingers. "Bad Boy" She laughed a little as I laughed shaking my head.
"I thought I'd never be okay without him and here I am 25 years later" She exhaled shaking her head tapping her nails against her cup. "I still love him very much I always will" She looked down then up blinking a few times battling some tears fanning herself off with her hand.

"Mom" I sighed getting up walking to her wrapping my arms around her neck. "Dad loves you too" I mumbled placing my chin on her head as she touched my arms with her hand. "I'm not sad" She exhaled. "He remarried a wonderful woman" She sniffled. "She's great to him and for him" She continued to say. "She has uplifted him and loves you and your brother just as much" She exhaled patting my arm lightly as I pulled away slowly going to sit back down.

"Want some wine? And we can talk more?" She laughed getting up wiping underneath her eyes as I dropped my mouth laughing. "Anyways" She cleared her throat setting some glasses down on the table as she began reading the bottle of wine. "We have some amazing children and memories" She gulped opening the bottle as she poured some. "I didn't deserve your father" She exhaled sliding a cup over to me slowly sitting back down as I raised my eyebrows taking the glass.

"Why not?" I asked placing my hand up to my cheek.
"We had our ups and downs like every couple and I turned to partying made it worst" She said sipping her wine licking her lips. "You kids actually kept us together longer than planned" She scoffed smiling as I laughed shaking my head. "We were young and wild" She raised her eyebrows as I could see her reminiscing in her face. "Yeah me and Danny did some things" I exhaled smiling as my mom placed her hand on her cheek listening.

"You really loved that boy" She whispered as I nodded sipping my wine slowly. "If I tell you something promise you won't hate me?" I shut one eye as she moved her eyebrows down putting her hands out. "Katelyn I could never hate you" She laughed as I wiped a tear from my eye taking her hands. "You can be a pain in my ass but I'd never hate one of my children" She said tilting her head.
"Unless it's your brother" She scoffed as we began laughing I sniffled looking at her shaking my head.

"Me and Danny had a miscarriage" I mumbled as my mom slowly let go of my hand covering her mouth. "Yeaaaaup was pregnant" I mumbled taking a deep breath. "Natural causes" I gulped looking at my mom who was speechless. "He took it hard" I exhaled as my mom put her hands in her hair rubbing her hands down her face. "I thought you were using protection on birth control?" She asked biting her nail as I scoffed shaking my head pressing my lips together.

"I'm sorry" She said blinking a few times getting up walking to the kitchen window opening it. "I need some air" She exhaled placing her hands on her hips.
"Mom don't feel bad" I sighed looking at her as she looked at me. "I just wish I could of been there for you" She said shaking her head. "Were you far along?" She sat back down interested as she sipped her wine.