I have known this since October or November of 2014. But I like girls and boys. I'm bisexual. I've come in and out of the closet a trillion times. I'd really love just to come out and be myself. I've kissed three girls and two boys. It's really hard honestly like anyone, every time I've tried to date either gender it's gone to actual shit. Like before it's even official, the person usually just wants to see my body and just took a DNA test and is 100% horny ass slut.
A huge part of me thinks it's just the population that's attracted to females. Like where the shit is someone that wants a mostly non-sexual relationship? What I mean is just LET IT BE SIMPLE at THE BEGINNING (or for a good few long months) without the pressure of having sex right away or being sexual. I really want to make sure a person I am with is going to be good to me and is a good person and actually my type before we do anything sexual. I really want to get to know someone, make a meaning connection. Make an emotional connection way before a sexual one.
WHERE DOES SOMEONE THAT COULD MEET THESE STANDARDS EXIST? I feel like it's not too much to ask for. Well, I am trying to ask for this being a teenager while everyone's hormones are still crazy and everyone is still way more hornier than they should be. But seriously it's not fair. I want a simple relationship. If I can't get that I am fine with being forever alone, to be honest. I ain't-a hoe nor will I ever be. I ain't jumping into a relationship and be in it for sex unlike some people cough cough my ex and any human (most people) that's tried to be with me.
Oh well.
Like honestly, I want someone that's pretty decent looking. I don't care about eye color. I don't care about hair color or length of hair. I don't want someone skinnier or shorter than me, but if I happen to fall for someone like that and our personality's mix, that is totally fine. I really don't want someone shorter than me, I've dated shorter people than me and it was totally fine, I just have a preference. I don't care what ethnicity someone is. SO basically if you are good looking like cute in my eyes (most people are), not driven by religion, CANNOT be biphobic or homophobic. Got to be a nice person. Is consistent with a compliment from being to end. I don't do tough love, END OF STORY. I am not a sexual person. Got to like some of the same music, liking different music is great though, I love learning new music and having differences. Got to like some of the same tv shows and movies, but have some differences. I don't know man, I'm pretty simple. I like video games, they got to like video games. :)
That's it, man. :)
You are probably wondering heck why the heck are you talking about this? And well that's because someone posted on snapchat "yo this girl is looking for a bi/gay girl" and I was all like "yo here is my calling bi girl on their way" turns out it was just a thot wanting to send me her nudes.
Also, the last guy I talked to that possibly wanted to pursue a relationship was a fucking thot as well. Had played dirty unwanted truth or dare with me wasting my time. The guy before that wanted to cheat on his girlfriend with me. So yeah humans I rate them solid scummy dirty times one hundred. Like does your friend mean that little to you that you would cheat on her?
Also, I would love to point out I am pretty sure I had a girlfriend for two days this year, then I THINK she cheated on me for like one second and broke up with me. I wasn't heartbroken, but like damn, these humans these days. I don't know everyone is a thot that tries to interact with me.
I guess I ask for too much and refuse to settle for scum thots. I am a lot happier alone than in a relationship where I can't trust the person and I have constant anxiety over them.
I really need to keep in mind I need to be in a relationship with someone I CAN TRUST like I can 100% trust them. Someone I don't have to worry about if they like me and I just know.
