July 24th

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My mom literally doesn't understand anything. I just want to call Sam and my mom won't let me.

Someone please just take me away from here so I can call Sam.

If my mom wasn't sooooo freaking close minded this would be 100% okay.

Okay but besides me constantly writing about him.

I want to lose ten pounds before I got to Maryland. Idk if that's possible. Weird goal. But yoooo beach body in the next two weeks lmao jk jk

I really want to call Sam and just tell him I love him without having to be all quiet about it.

This is super ironic. Because BRO I AM WRITING ABOUT MY LIFE TO THW PUBLIC. Like maybe two people read this. But yo anyone has access to this.

But yo I wish I had some privacy... like when I call him and my friends I can't be myself. I have to act how my parents expect me to act. I can't be myself around my parents. And when I'm around them 24/7 in this stupid hotel room I can't be myself and I hate it.

I can't play instruments, I can't fully make my YouTube videos since my family is right here and they can watch me and it's weird. And I can't act myself in them. I'm just saying my parents hold me back from my true personality.

I would love to just be myself.

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