I think about you all the time and all the memories we made. I get super depressed thinking about how everything has changed. We were so close. Ruining our friendship is probably one of my biggest regrets in my life so far. I miss you so much. I miss hanging out with you and your weird family. I miss going to the pool and you trying to find me a boyfriend, it embarrassed the hell out of me. But I miss watching YouTube with you. I miss sleeping over at your house and you sneaking out and I just stay in your room then you coming back with strange stories of what you and some boy did. I miss you so much. You were like an older sibling I always wanted. I miss watching you play sims. I miss going to the teen center with you even though I didn't find it that interesting. I miss riding the bus home with you when I would come over. I miss you teasing me about what at the time was my boyfriend Jo. I miss just being around you and your confident outgoing personality.
Our friendship wasn't worth losing over stupid shit. It wasn't worth trying to get Jo to stay with me. He hated you for no reason. You joked around and it was honestly fine. You were joking. He was just a dick. He was a slut shaming dick. He hated you, he hated my sister for no reason too. He would tell me how he doesn't understand how I am your friend. I was desperate to not be alone. I was so stupid to choose him over you. He wasn't worth it at all. He wasn't worth it and now I miss you so much. I guess things happen for a reason. If I could bring back any friendship it would be ours, and I've gone through a lot of best friends. I wanted out of the friendship for an awful relationship that quickly ended and it wasn't worth it.
I miss when your sisters would drive us around places. I miss you messing around in the store and throwing things in other aisles. Our friendship ending has hurt more than I like to admit. I miss eating cereal with you at 12AM. I miss hanging with you so much. I know we're kind of friends now. But it's soooo sooooo different now. We had the friendship I always wanted to have. I miss playing Minecraft with you on the Xbox. I miss your stupid brother annoying the hell out of me. You were worth more than I realized and I deeply miss you. I know I said I don't know what I would do without, and sometimes I really feel that.
I really hope one day we can be close like we use to, because this hurts like hell right now, even though this happened months ago. You meant more to me than I thought.
From Meg
