Ugh I feel sick
And incredibly depressed
I just pray things to get better
I miss talking to Sam so much. I hopefully get to talk to him today.
Gosh, everything feels so shitty.
I felt sooooo happy July. I wish it was of july. Calling Sam and talking to him every day but now I can't and ugh I just miss it sooooo much.
I feel like I'm messing everything up tbh. Like they are all what-ifs in the end. But I just feel so poopy. I wish Sam could be here to just hold me.
I've started to hate myself sooooooooo much. Like an incredible amount. I haven't felt this way in a while. I just think "how could someone love themself" like I cringe at the thought of my existence. I cringe at images of myself and my appearance. I cringe at my own voice and literally anything I do. I don't get what happened to self-love.
