August 23rd
Band camp was very boring and short but whatever. I feel included enough in the tuba section it's all good.
It's been on my mind all day. But I had a dream that I went and met Sam and his family. It was sort of weird. Because the school librarian was his uncle. Also Tacia was there and that made no sense. Idk man. I super wish over kind of anything in the world that I could see Sam and hug him (have him hug me) ughhhh and it makes me sad that it was only a dream. Then in the dream I had to leave (idk why) and then I held sams hand and it felt dry but I didn't care lol. Then in my dream my grandma was there.
And I've been thinking of this all day and I'm so sad now that it was only a dream. My grandma isn't here since she passed away, and Sam is in Michigan.
That dream got me crying many many hours later.
I've been decently happy otherwise since Wednesday which has been really nice since on like Tuesday I had a breakdown.
Also finally ate dinner for once in my life lol.
