How much longer can I take it?
Everything feels like too much. Simple tasks feel like too much. I feel like I barely function. I am losing sooo much. I'm losing everything I come in contact with. It's not always right away but everyone leaves, everything leaves.
I wish I lived another life. My life is horrible. I really wish it was June, everything was good, even it really wasn't. I miss the feeling. I loved Sam so much, I still do. But my mom didn't know of any of it, she couldn't ruin any of it. But now my mom and his mom has ruined it.
I feel so fucking miserable. Every time I say I feel that way it's worse than the previous time.
I just want to be happy with him.
Again there's no more "Goodnight Megann! I love you!" Since he has to keep it secret since his mom isn't all about that online relationship thing.
LIKE WTF HES 19 almost 20 LET HIM MAKE HIS OWN DECISIONS.
I'm so tired of everything holding me back from being happy. I feel so miserable.
I wish I could just message but I can't
I wish I could just call him but I can't
THIS IS SO BULLSHIT
I fucking hate you mom
I am so stupid for being open with you mom
Never again am I being open with her.
