I am going to be honest. It's really hard to be happy when my mom is being a fucking bitch. I hate her so much sometimes. I'll be happy once I'm 18. God fucking damn. I hate my family so much. I just need a job and a car and to be away from my family. I can't wait until high school is done so I can just leave. I'm so fucking done with my family and high school. I've felt this way forever. Not just since I've gotten a boyfriend, just so you know. I've felt this way for five years of just wanting to be away from my family, because I am so unhappy around my family. I am so miserable around my family. They completely drain my happiness. I just want them out of my life. All they do is argue and worry about money and I just want to be away from all that. I just want to be somewhere I can be happy. Being happy sounds like away from my family. I've been through actual shit with my family and I'm so tired of it.
But ughhh my mom is such a bitch. I was talking to my boyfriend on the phone like I always do before he goes to school. She got all mad that I was talking loud. I told her I would quiet down. Then she just yells at me. Then she yelled at me "tell him goodbye. You are going to school soon, you can't call him when school starts, so just get over him now."
MY MOM DOESN'T UNDERSTAND THE SHIT SHE SAYS HURTS.
I've never been so happy with someone. Ugh and right now is like the best part of my day. When I get to call him and talk and listen to him, and that's when I'm at my happiest.
Hopefully the day gets better. And it's only 4AM
