Yeah it's like 12AM something
I'm feeling super insecure about my body. So that super fun. Like all my fat is on the upper part of my body and my legs are smaller. It's just kind of gross.
I want to change my body but I don't know how.
Also my parents got a job.
I've felt kind of depressed lately which kind of sucks.
I had a moment where I thought I was gay but it's okay.
I'm still bisexual.
I like looking more masculine to be honest, as in more masculine clothes. Gender roles are shit.
Apparently a few of my friends only treat me a certain way because I'm a girl. I think it's bullshit and I don't want to be treated like I am more delicate because I'm a girl. Treat me delicate because you like me and want to protect me not because I'm female. As I said gender roles are shit. Yeah I can be feminine. I want everyone to be treated the same. I don't know how to feel being treated one way because I'm a girl. Oh well it's better than being sexualized I guess.
Also I realized most of the band kids dislike me. They all followed me at the being of the year on Instagram and I made a new account and barely any of them will follow me back. Soooo yeah fun.
Oh well. I love my D&D friends.
Ugh I am feeling depressed right now and it sucks and I don't know why.
I'm feel kind of ehhhh because my hair is getting pretty long and I don't like it. I'm hating myself a lot lately.
Today has been good on d&d boasted my mood
