I feel broken with the amount of reassurance I need from everyone. Someone shouldn't need so much reassurance. I don't get why I'm so fucked up. I don't get why I can't just accept someone I love, loves me back, someone I like, likes me back, someone I care about also cares about me. He makes me feel so happy but my stupid brain is telling me it's all lies and I don't deserve this. I feel like if he knew how much I dislike myself he would leave me. I fucking hate anxiety. It's so stupid I don't get why I have to have it and it has to make me feel miserable.
