I loved you so much. I was so afraid to lose you. So afraid of so much to do with you. I was anxious talking to you. I truly thought I loved you. I thought it would last. Now I don't feel the same way anymore. I wish I did, I really wish I did. You are amazing. You make me laugh, you love me, you truly want me to be happy. Then you told me about how you feel about yourself and who you want to be. Now almost all love I once had has faded. You've told me you weren't sure and it wasn't true how you were feeling when I almost broke up with you. But I've still lost feelings, hoping they are going to come back. Maybe if you were physically here, I could hug you, I would not feel this way. I still love him, maybe I just need time for me to once again believe. I've gotten myself heartbroken over how my heart feels about the one I once so strongly was crazy about and loved way too much. But now I don't feel anything and I don't know what to do. Maybe the feelings will come back if I end it and I'll just hurt myself worse. Maybe I'll just end up hurting him and then I'll be happy but yet sad that I hurt him. Maybe we will both me happier. But maybe we will just both be heart broken.
Now I feel again. I love you so much.
