Nobody ever talks unless asked about falling out of love. Well technically losing feels. Like I don't feel it anymore. I remember how I felt when I started to talking to him and how much in love I was and how I loved the adrenaline of being all nervous and him being nervous. Getting to know him.
It's felt like forever being with him. And he has gotten me through a lot. But again like I always jump into relationships without truly getting to know someone, there was one expectation but that was years ago and a mistake. I didn't get to know the real him. I let myself completely fall for a stranger. And I don't know if I love this stranger the way I should love a significant other. Like I love him but it's different.
I've said stupid flirty things to him lately but I haven't really felt it.
I'm just hoping it's my period about to come having these thoughts. I've invested 4 months in this relationship and now I'm losing feelings what the hell. I wish I could just feel the same I did from the beginning. I wish I didn't jump into this blindly. At least I'm not hurt right???
I just hope the feelings return by next week because I'm not letting this go on if I don't feel anything. That wouldn't be fair to him.
For a while I wish I fell in love with someone else. I think that's a sign it's not meant to be but I could to emotional right now.
