I feel like I don't have control of my life at all. I feel like everyone hates me. I know things will change but I hurt a lot. And I keep blaming myself for how others feel. I wish people could just be open. And I just don't know what to do. I wish I could just talk to others about how they feel and resolve things without being pushy. I've literally ruined and pushed away all my exs away.
I just feel so over it. So over everything. I just want high school to be done. I like civics class and like that's it. I am tired of band and the stress. I am so just tired of the stress in theatre. I am tired of just stress of people and seeing people. I want to hide away and look at cute girls on tiktok. I know it's break but break doesn't last forever. I want this shit to be done and over with. My mom wanted me to live my high school experience but honestly I hate it. I hate people and I hate doing things I don't like and I really hate being around people I don't like. And honestly the stress of some of this is ruining friendships. I can't handle this. Like bruh I am sooooo stressed. Everything feels like too much and I just can't deal with it.
