I am feeling pretty okay today.
Honestly I wish things would be different with almost everything all the time. I think well if this and that things would be better.
In a perfect world I think I would still be with Sam Ribic honestly.
Or another perfect world I would be with Gwen.
Maybe in this perfect world I would be with Garrett.
In an incredibly perfect world I would be with Scott.
In a great perfect world I would be with Sam the dungeon master from Michigan.
Maybe even jo if he was a different person.
Possibly even Dayna.
I'm sick of losing soulmates.
If I could choose one soulmate it would probably be Gwen honestly. Feelings for her never completely went away. She was like no other. I just felt so different about her.
I've realized I fall for people that are also broken, and I try to fix them. The last four relationships I've been in I've tried to like "save them" and in the process hurt myself more.
In all these alternate universes everyone I've encountered is my soulmate there. I fall in love so easy and I hate letting go of people.
I hate losing people. I hate creating enemies. But I extremely hate losing people. I wish It was cool and I didn't create so many enemies as I lose friendships. Idk where I'm going with this.
I fall in love way too easily and I make enemies way tot easily.
But I know I need to stay single for a while to let myself heal, as much as I'd love to not be alone.
I also feel empty right now.
Hahaha
