I feel like the world is going to collapse and I'm going to die. I think I just might have a panic attack. It's only 3:33AM and I feel like I'm going to lose my shit. I feel like I'm going to lose everything. I feel like everything is going to go wrong. I feel like everyone is going to leave me and I'm going to be pushed to the edge and forgotten about. I feel like nobody needs me. I feel like nobody feels like they need me. I feel like if I die everyone would soon forget about me and not really care. I feel like nobody really cares about me.
I was so happy for two or three days and now I feel like absolute garbage. I like how I can feel like at the top of the world then the next day just feel like I belong with the worms. I feel like such a mess. I can't even have a conversation with Sam without just having a ton of anxiety. Just everything seems to go wrong and I'm so scared I'm going to mess this up. A million questions just keep running. what if? What if this really means this? What if what if? I feel like I can't handle anything right now.
