Avalanche ~ Nemi (Sequel to Keep Holding On)

6.

NICK P.O.V.: we arrived to the coffee shop and sat on a reserved closed place for the three of us.

Kevin: now

Joe: talk (I looked at them and left my phone on the table to grab my mug)

Nick: okay. What do you want ne to tell you?

Joe: what are you really feeling? Or why did this hurt you so fucking much? Or what happened to the both you? We never get the chance to know what made you grow apart

Nick: umm, I lied...that was the main reason why we grew apart

Kevin: what was the lie?

Nick: I didn't lie to her, I lied to Priyanka about her and she heard it because I couldn't hang up properly

Joe: what did you say to Pri?

Nick: I told her that Demi kissed me once like 5 years ago cause we were both drunk cause she was never really sober and that I didn't consider Demi a beautiful or sexy girl...that I just see her as my best friend

Joe: why the hell did you-

Nick: it's okay, I don't need you to tell me I was wrong...I know, I know I shouldn't have said that, I know fuck! (I said louder and hit the table with my fist)

Kevin: okay okay...calm down Nick, you made a big mistake but what happened next?

Nick: I spent a whole day trying to know what went wrong with the both of us because she ignored me all the time, I went to her house, we talked and we ended the friendship...

Joe: was she angry or sad?

Nick: she was angry at first, then she got sad and I left

Kevin: you miss her that much?

Nick: that much? (I was confused with his question)

Kevin: Priyanka told us that most of the night you don't eat, you spend literally all day in the house, mostly in your bedroom or the music room...what's happening to you?

Nick: I wasn't like this before but after what happened with Demi...everything went dark. I don't have to fear depression because I know I already have it

Joe: you do?

Nick: oh yes, don't worry...I'm fine, the therapists told me that they couldn't help me if I wasn't going to fight to get better

Joe: you won't? (They looked worried at me and I shook my head no)

Nick: look, I love you both, Frank, mom and dad, Pri, your wifes, Alena and Valentina, the fans...I love a lot of things but...she's not here anymore, my biggest confident, my biggest friend in the entire world, my soul sister, my sunshine...Joe, Kev...there's not an hour a day I don't think about her, I fight everyday to not call her or hit her phone. We've been best friends since we were 14, I can't believe this is happening. All I want to do since I let her go is cry. I'm not hungry, thirsty, tired or excited...I just want to see her, hear her voice or see a message from her. I need Demi, I need her like I've never needed someone before, I don't know why...I shouldn't feel this way but...I feel like since she left, I have no good days, just days (Kevin smiled softly and Joe nodded analyzing me)

Kevin: wow

Joe: you love her, huh?

Nick: of course I do, she's my best frie-

Joe: no...you love her...in the other way

Nick: I don't know what you're talking bout

Kevin: he's right (he pointed to Joe)

Joe: you can't deny it...you fell for her Nick

Nick: what the hell are you saying? I could nev-

Joe: I know you and I see it in your eyes...I see it in your very soul...you love her