Nervous Dream

Ten

Luhan spares another glance at the paper in his hands, the list of rookies with their details. For an unknown reason he didn't want to take his eyes off that name 'Lee Jaehee'.

"Why does she have a Korean name if she is from Philippines ?" He thinks out loud.

"How do I know hyung ?" Kai replies him sparing not even a glance at Luhan.

Luhan bends over to his back as he grabs the heavy binder and turns the pages slowly and stops when he finds her name.

"Lee JaeHee" He reads. 

"Adopted" 

His eyes roll down through the file as he turns to the next page. A little envelope was tagged along to the page and he curiously removes the clip before opening the envelope and taking the picture of her out to take a look.

It doesn't take long for him to realize the reason why he couldn't take his eyes off her name. His eyes widen, either in bliss or in worrysome, he didn't know. He takes a moment for him to deal with the sea of thoughts rushing through his mind. He wasn't certain, if he was glad to find her or not. Scared of the thought of spotting her in the crowd of rookies, he closes his eyes and rubs the bridge of his nose with his forefingers.

"You can come home. I'll arrange everything." Eunhwa's words ring in his head.

He tries to question himself for answers.

Was that what he wanted too ?

Go back without Rian and find a solution that way ?

Though he knew going back without her would have him dethroned and Yifan taking the throne instead.

But was the throne what he wanted ?

Wasn't a happily-ever-after with Eunhwa what he wanted ?

If that was the case should he now rip this paper in his hand into pieces and run to the ship and drive himself back to the planet ?

One after one, each question hits his head like thunderstorms. He heaves a painful sigh trying to calm his thoughts.

"Lee Jaehee" He hears Jihoo's voice, the coordinator of rookies, calling out her name. Given no choice, he slowly opens his eyes to spot Sehun and Kai with widened eyes, staring at the girl stepping out the group of rookies and to them. 

Her long black hair tied loosely and her eyes sparkling deep. She smiles wide as Jihoo shows her hand and guides her on. She looks around at the rookies, who were enviously applauding at her. Step by step she was learning to be happy, to accept her fate and be satisfied with it. Luhan eyes a single tear jumping out of Sehun's eyes rolling through his porcelain white cheek.

"Rian" Sehun mentally calls out as she passes by. 

Behind her ear, as she steps on, he sees the birthmark, the only thing he ever needed to confirm it was her. His eyes tear up, all the nights he went sneaking out the building looking around for that face comes to his mind all at once.

Disappointment, fear of not being able to find her, fear of having to return home without her, he had been trapped in them for years. All the days of sleeping without knowing where she was, or how she was doing had finally come to an end.

But then she passed by.

Not a single stare, a single turn, she passed by.

Sehun leans forward as he looks to his right, to see her. Though the birthmark proved him it was her, the girl standing there, to Sehun, was not her. The smile; the first ever genuine smile Sehun had ever seen her in was on that face. A bright smile, a happy smile, a not-forced smile. Sehun's mind runs blank as he tries to scan her face. He sees Sette running to her proudly and tugging herself to her, and Jaehee turning to her widening her smile. In the middle of the chaotic room, Sehun was silently observing the two.

"Rian, why are you ignoring me ?" He asks mentally. He is not able to hold up his tears and they start falling down in streams.

"I will never forget you, my little brother"

Her last words he had ever got to hear, rings in his head like crazy.