Nervous Dream

Forty Six

"You will not get anything from me. Anything !!!!!!" I hear his voice under his breath with his hand holding my chin so his face was scarily close to mine while his other hand made sure I was pinned to the wall.

With my eyes closed I try to conceal the pain inside letting the tears flow by.

"LuHan" I only call his name out , which makes him angrier.

"I hate you. You think I don't know anything ? You are here hungry for power and nothing more. You should know, even the dirt I step on deserves it, but not you."

I open my eyes to the angry him and it hurts me even deeper and deeper.

He pulls me closer to him by my chin as he throws all of it at me.

"Why can't you get rid of yourself ? then I can be happy with the girl that I love. I just wish you did"

He lets go of my hand and almost throws me at the door as he lets go of my chin in the harshest way.

I was done. I could not take it anymore. My legs were feeling weak and I couldn't feel them anymore. All I wanted was to disappear. Disappear so he could not hurt me anymore. Disappear so he got what he wished. Disappear so I could stop myself from loving a cold hearted beast.

Disappear , I wanted to.

"Greetings, Crown Princess." I hear that cold voice sending shivers down my spine. Helplessly being on the floor, I look up to her.

"The crown prince wishes your death, doesn't he ?"

The memory of the previous night where I had decided to visit LuHan's dreams come to my mind haunting me. He had been dreaming of throwing me off the cliff, getting rid of me.

My chest rises heavily under my breath as she continues her devilish talk.

"Don't you think , at least disappearing would be the best way ? No one would curse at you again. Luhan, will be happy to see you gone."

As much as I hated her, I hated myself for being so powerless and helpless.
So

"Where.... Can.. I ... go ?" I ask gasping  and sniffing , in a state I had not wanted her to see me in.

"Abandon the planet, you can do." She announces.

The thought scares me for a moment, but I stop to think it would set LuHan at peace.

"I'll make the arrangements if your highness commands me so." She bows, looking away without waiting for my response.

"I'll take some time... to .." I stutter.

"You have all the time you need, your highness. I am only ..... being.. considerate of you. A young life, shouldn't be wasted to sorrow like this, now should it ?"

Shee says as she wipes my tears away, slowly bending low.

"Then, I'd get going." She bows before leaving me to my thoughts.

That is when I hear the most precious person's voice calling out, looking for me. I sniff and quickly wipe my tears and stand up on my feet , making the dress neat so he would not see me in pain.

"Rian, the crown princess."

Two had not been enough. 

When two cold voices had already killed and teared me inside, there I hear the voice of the person who was the reason for it all.

Eunhwa

"I just wanted you to know, Luhan loves me. And not you."
She speaks up, I stay paused not turning back to her face.

"As painful as it feels to you it makes me angry. Why is he married to someone like you when I own his heart already ?"

I clench my fist in anger and pain and hatred. All at the same time.

"I am his lawfully wedded wife."

I muster all the courage I could, and speak at her through gritted teeth.

"Though I cannot begin to comprehend how you got the guts to speak this way to my face, you... are..plotting against the royality now, lady." I turn to her , my voice shaking and  hands shivering.

"You better get rid of yourself from my husband's life, or else things will get really nasty. " I spell as stern as I could bring myself up to be.

"How dare you.." She dares to say.

"How dare you ? How dare you to speak to this planet's crown princess, the way you do ? Behold yourself." I yell as I walk to her making her walk back to hit the wall opposite.

"Rian" I hear his voice from my back. I take a deep breath before turning to him with the best smile I could make out.

"Sehun"

He looks past me to Eunhwa. 

"Is everything okay ?" He asks, as he always does. 

"Hm" I assure him as I walk to him as quick as I could. A moment of courage lasted only a few minutes and I had already decided to leave the light of my life to another planet.

He pulls me into a light hug and I feel his anger in his heart.

"Mianhae" I whisper pulling out from the hug . His brows crease at me.

"I will never forget you my little brother" I kiss him on his head and he closes his eyes.

*****

Jaehee opens her eyes to a painfully empty room. Each and every moment of him stepping on her heart, was running in her mind over and over again. The warmth of her tears climbing down her cheeks were hurting her even deeper. She tries to calm her shivering hands, trying to conceal the feels.

She brings her knees up to her and sits straight letting herself to be taken over by the tears. The sobbing become to crying, and the crying become to screaming. She was losing to the pain of her memories and there seemed to be no way out of it.