Taste Of Sadness

Chap 27 - Emotional

“Ryleigh....”

I didn't said a word. Instead, humagulgol ako. Sa harapan ni Raiel.

I really feel so down. Parang bumabalik ako sa dati. I admit that i'm that sensitive. I don't even know kung nagpapaka-oa lang ako o masasaktan talaga ako sa ginawa ni Charlize sakin. At sa mga sinabi ni Acy.

I never made myself like that. Everything's not according to what i like. Sino bang gugustuhin ang mapahiya? Sino bang gugustuhin ang mainsulto ng lahat? Isama mo pa ang mga kaibigan mo.

No one knows how i felt hurt that time. How i got traumatized. How i suddenly forget myself because of regret. Regret that i trusted the wrong people.

Niyakap ako ni Raiel ng mahigpit. Pero isinubsob ko lang ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya at patuloy na humagulgol.

Ganito ang kahina, katulad lang ng mga sinabi nila sakin. Katulad ng sinabi ni Charlize.

“If you're thinking about what they said, quit it, Ryleigh.” raiel said.

“I j-just c-can't.”

“We're here. All of us. Hindi mo na kailangang isipin ang sinasabi nila. Kahit ang nakaraan mo.” puno ng pagaalala na sabi ni Janella.

That's the point. You all are here, but it never helped me vanish this pain.

“Finish this already.” napatigil ako. At napaangat ang tingin. Currently looking onto Raiel.

“W-what---”

“Olivia's birthday will happen soon. William's asking you to play their piano as her gift.” napabitaw ako kay Raiel. N-no...

“What?! Raiel! You are not going to let her come!!!!” sigaw ni Janella. Until now, she's totally not in the mood. Inis na inis siya sa nangyari kanina.

“We have no choice, Janella.”

“There is a thousand of choices that she could do! Do you think that one is asa easy as what you think?!”

“No. But i know this as the best thing that Ryleigh could do.” he said with full of authority.

“You're surprisingly unbelievable! Anong tingin mo kay Ryleigh? She's not as brave as what you're expecting her to be!!”

“And what do you want her to do?! Tumakbo at tumakbo sa nakaraan niya para lang hindi na siya magambala?!? It is much worse than facing the reality!”

“Then what do you think about her past!!? Rather her reality?! Insane!”

“Calm down. Your fight doesn't help.” risse calmly said. Napalibutan kami ng katahimikan matapos niyang magsalita. It's because we all know that she's serious.

“Past and Reality is a big different, Ryleign. You can never compare it.”

“Janella--” hindi natuloy ang sasabihin ni Risse nang may idugtong pa si Janella.

“Because that fucking past is worth to be forgotten. It isn't to be repeated as you think what it seems.” hindi na kami nakapagsalita nang bigla siyang umalis. Dumaan ito sa gitna namin ni Raiel. Kaya nabangga niya Si Raiel.

Dumiretso siya sa taas. Probably on her room.

“Raiel. Leave for awhile, please. We need to talk.” hindi naman na sumagot si Raiel. Sinulyapan niya lang ako ng tingin at pagkatapos nun ay umalis na kaagad siya. But he slammed the door loudly as he left.