My life with Aspergers

Chapter 23- A friendship remade

So remember that one person that I told you that I was not supposed to talk too and made my aunt furious by being rude? Well, I written 3 letters to my aunt, my cousin, and to the girl that I was being rude too. I wasn't meaning too be rude, I guess I was just concentrating on the first thing her dad said by not talking to her. I guess I was just stubborn. My aunt and cousin accepted the apology but I am not sure about the girl. Truthfully I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't accept it. Now I am not sure if she will accept it or not, but I am not sure if we became friends again like it never happened. So let me give you advice that I learne the hard way; If there is someone you don't like talking too, or you hate and they try to make it up to you and you ignore them? Don't do it.

Because if there was something I learned, that if your not going to talk to someone for a couple or maybe a few days? That is understandable. But if you carry it on for weeks and weeks and weeks that just gets frustrating with people. So I am not sure if I am friends with her again or not but I guess I will have to wait and see. So the next time I go to my cousin's house in St. Anthony or if she comes to my aunt's house, but I promised all three people (My aunt, cousin, and the girl) that if I ever see her I promised them these things

1- I would not ignore her if I see her

2- I would try my best to try and talk too her by saying "Hi" I do not remember the rest because I don't remember word for word what I written but I am pretty sure the 3 of them will understand them hopefully. So if I ever see her again, I promise I will try my best to  talk to her so she doesn't feel like I hate her or anything.

The thing about me is when someone says something (anything bascially) they say one message and I take things too literal. Like when her father said no talking to her, I took that literally and I just thought in my head, Well he said no talking to her so I am not going to talk to her. What he really meant was you can talk to her but just carefully how you say thing you know? But I didn't convince myself of that. All the times when she would come to my aunt's house, I would see her but did not say anything to her from the point she arrives to the point where she leaves it wouldn't even matter if I am at my aunt's house and she comes or I go to my cousin's house in St. Anthony... I would basically not say anything to her throughout the whole visit.

Now I am not trying to be rude or anything I guess I am just stubborn and taking things to literal sometimes, Weeks had gone by almost a month and my aunt was getting furious with me not talking to her only because I was trying to follow orders. I mean if you saw the way my aunt was feeling, you would see that there were tears rolling down her eyes because she had a mixed emotion of frustation and embarrasment. Now part of Aspergers that I read about it's hard for people such as I to tell how people are feeling if they are hurt emotionally or not. I could get the sensing feeling that my aunt was hurt, frustrated, and embarrased.... I had to thinnk for myself What is the right thing to do? Just let it go and act like this never happened tonight? Or should I make apology letters and try to make things right?  I knew I had made the right choice by writing apology letters.

Her dad did write a apology letter to me explaining he was overreacting I am not sure if I told you this or not. I didn't tell my aunt but I did accept the letter. So I guess what I am trying to say it is probably a few days ago I written all 3 letters and didn't finish until midnight. Now you might be asking, How long was did you write the letter? Well, think of a piece of paper. I had written a letter the whole page on the front and back. When my aunt saw the letter I had written for her she said,

"Wow you are a writer." And it was true because it's in my family blood to write. I have written lyrics, books on here and off of here, I have written letters, I have done a lot of writing.