My life with Aspergers

Chapter 5- Graduation

When the time came for me to graduate High school, I graduated but not really graduated. Let me explain that a little better. Before the end of the year, I had 2 choices; I could either get a Certificate of Completion and I could walk with my class but I would not get a Diploma. Or, I could work for getting a Diploma. And what did I choose? I choose to earn a Diploma... But the good thing is I got to graduate with my class but with out a Diploma. During that summer after I walked with my class I had to go to MATC near the bowling alley in Utah. And let me tell you, I was living in hell when I was there (using as a expression, not swearing when I said hell) Because I had to do so many packets that I thought it would never end.  But as it had turned out, I eventually gone through it. I had to do 8 packets before I could get a Diploma.

Every day I would go there and I would get a packet, bring it home and start doing it. At the end of the packet, I had to quiz myself for the test based on that specific packet. It was hard because my brother Jaron was kind of rough on me and I do not think he was saying it in the best way possible. But I soon finished all 8 packets and finally got my Diploma from East shore. Hey, it was better that I did East Shore than working for Lone Peak's Diploma. Why you might ask? Because here is the thing; When the day came for me to sign yearbooks at the end of the year, my father Jack called me and told me I had 2 choices; I could either go to East shore and work for maybe 4 packets (That's what I thought at first) or I could do 20 packets and graduate from Lone Peak. I choose to do 4 packets instead.. If I had chosen 20, I would be so sick of doing these packets like I wanted to quit.

But thanks to my brother, I have him to thank for that because he might have been rough on me to do these packets, but it was because he wanted me to graduate... And I did. I thank my brother for that for pushing me through these packets. If it wasn't for him, I would still be on these packets getting sick of them.

Well, I finally graduated from MATC and I was so happy that my parents and I went out for a celebration because I finished them. Now, one of the teacher's actually drove me home the day I graduated. Normally, teacher's are not allowed to take student's home unless they graduate. I would not want to live that day ever again. Readers, if you are reading this then take my advice; If you are behind in school or not doing your homework or anything like that... I would suggest you do it now because take it from me, I learned the hard way of finishing High School and that included taking Summer classes. If you do not want to end up taking summer classes, or making up credits like I had to do, than I suggest you do your school work good and done... You don't want to end up the way I did.

The day after I had graduated I had felt so free, I could finally sleep in and just be at home. And let me tell you, it feels good when you are finally done with High School. But that's not the only thing you have to do when you finish. You have to start looking for a job, maybe go to College, etc.. Now I was home for a long time and I still did not get a job... It was hard looking for a job. I didn't go to college because it cost a lot of money to get into, and I didn't have the money for it. But while I was in Lone Peak, we would go on these field trips on UVU and I loved going there because it was a big college and they had a lot of lunch choices more than Lone Peak did. I also had worked as a lunch worker in Lone Peak because that could have helped me with school credit also. And it did help.

For years since Elemantry school until after High School, I had always hung out at Kaile's house. You could say we were really good friends. But then this one day I hung out with her, I saw the cutest girl I had ever seen in my life. And what did I do, I stuttered and tripped over my words. I usually do that when I am talking to a cute girl. It was more of like a crush you could say, but I soon later found out that it was Kaile's next door neighbor. From the reaction I saw, I could tell that Kaile didn't like her so much. I didn't know why, but I thought differently from her opinion.

Every time I hung out with Kaile, I wanted to hang out with her neighbor too. Remember, how I said it was like a crush? Well, at first I thought she was nice.. But then it grew into a crush and I did not want her to know that because I might have scared her. There had been times when I went to her neighbor's house just hanging out. I am not sure why but whenever I was around her, I felt secure and comfortable and it was a different kind of feeling. Even now every time I mention her, Kaile does not like that at all. But the thing is, I protect her and defend her (Kaile's neighbor I mean).

One day her neighbor wanted to meet me at the library by Kohler's and so I took up that chance. When I had got there, I first looked around and didn't see her. So I thought, maybe she isn't here yet. So I went to her house looking for her and didn't see her there, a few minutes later I went back to the library. Now realize that I was riding a bike at this time, so I went back there and I took a seat to rest my legs from that tiring peddling. About 10 minuts later, I saw 2 girls... At first I didn't think it was them, but then I heard Kaile's neighbor Kaileen say,

"Look there he is!" A few minutes had gone by and they finally came up to me. We were going to go hang out at Adiana's house but I noticed another girl that was with her. Her name was Ambika. Ambika had brown hair, and I think brown eyes. We soon got to Kaileen's house.. I can not remember exactly everything that happened but I remember some details. I can not remember if it was this day or some other time but I remember this one day with me, Kaileen and Ambika we were pulling this prank on Kaile. Well, it was actually Ambika that was doing the prank. Me and Kaileen were walking towards Kaileens house while Ambika was using my phone. We all thought it was funny.

When we had got to her house me, Kaileen, and Ambika just hung out at Kaileen's house. I didn't know that Ambika that well, I had a sort of a secret I didn't tell anyone. For the rest of that day, I did not remember every detail. But I could tell you one thing; I loved hanging out with Kaileen. But then this one day went really bad.

I soon found out who Ambika really was. Oh sure, that's her name alright but I am talking about her personality. It turns out, Ambika was a really mean person. She is that type that lies, tricks, and things that are horrible. I remember one day on Facebook, she called me a retard. Don't get me wrong, people with autism like mine get picked on all the time... You would think we got used to it. But it still hurts every time. There are actually a few songs, that I have listened to that speask to me every time. One song is calle "Outside looking in" By Jordan Pruitt. I consider that song, my life's theme song because it touches my heart. The second song is called "Untitled" by Simple Plan. Yeah, its depressing but it touches me too... And the third song is called "Take me, I'll follow" by Bobby Caldwell.

Anyway I started to despise Ambika because of the way she is. If she changed into a better person, than things will change but until then if it ever happens... Well, you know she is horrible. But in my opinion, Kaileen is a lot better than Ambika. Kaileen is a nice, sweet girl that every one would want to be friends with. Kaile on the other hand, doesn't like her at all. Kaile does not know what she is missing.