My life with Aspergers

Chapter 21- Affection

Everyone has something they get affected by right? I am not talking about like disorders something like that. I am talking about something that they get affected by. You know what I mean? Well I recently for a long time now found something that affects me and my emotions. Know what it is? Music. I found out that if I listen to happy songs, I am happy. If I listen to sad songs, I am sad. If I listen to heartbreaking songs, I get heartbroken. Whatever the feel of the song, I get affected by the music and I become the emotion that whatever the music feels like. Happy, sad, mad, heartbreaking, etc... You know. I didn't know it at first but I guess I kind of realized it after someone told me. They were only telling me because they could see it through that anytime I was listening to music, I can get affected by the emotion. Now this does not mean that this has to happen to you too. I guess it affects me because part of my Austism is because it can just affect me... So I guess in the future I have to be careful which music I listen too because I can get affected by it. I am not saying that music is bad to listen too (Well it is depending on what song you listen too) There are some good songs out there. Its just for me that I have to be careful what I listen too.

Readers do not think that when you are reading this chapter you have to say to yourself, Oh now I can't listen to music now because it might aftect me too. Well it depends on the person. I am just saying that I have to be careful of what I listen too because I may or may not get in trouble caused by listening to music. But don't worry readers, I am going to make sure that the music doesn't affect me terribly. The only time I would get affected by music is only if I get depressed somehow because of the situation and I have to listen to something to know what I am really going through. You know how it goes because you have something you have to do when you get sad, angry etc... Right? Well that's just like for me too. It just depends on the situation because if I feel like I did something wrong or made a mistake I would listen to the song knowing how I am feeling at that moment. But that's not just the only way too... Another way I would is I would write songs that I have written showing how I am feeling at this moment. Now you might be asking 2 questions. The first question your probably asking is Your a song writer? In honest answer, yes I write my own songs telling how I am feeling at the moment. Now the second question you might be asking is, How many songs have you written? Right? Well I can't tell you how many songs exactly but I can tell you the picture so you can picture it in your head.

Ok picture this; Think of a binder... A big binder. Got it? Ok now picture that binder filled with papers with songs of different emotions I have had in the past. Ok now think of another binder that's not very many songs at first because I just started filling that binder. But the first binder is filled with songs. Yeah sure I take request from people. If they ask

"Hey can you write a song for this person...?" I would do it... I guess it's because I consider myself a song writer and I write songs not only for how I feel but I take requests and I would write it for that person.