My life with Aspergers

Chapter 1- Introduction

My name is Alex Westover. I am 5' 7" with black hair thats getting a bit longer. I have brown eyes. I was born September 1st,1992. But I should tell you the story with my Aspergers... Once you get to know me a bit better, you'll understand how Aspergers works.

When I was young, maybe at the age of 5 I am guessing I rememember my mother telling me that I was dignosed with Aspergers. I remember that day so well. I remember I was downstairs in the library was where my mother usually was at that time. I remember her telling me,

"Alex, you have something called Aspergers Syndrome" When my mother told me I had it, I was shocked. Not shocked in the way you might think that's inside your head. I was shocked in a way that was kind of surprising. After I had found out that I had Aspergers, I was obessed about it. Now, you might be thinking obsession in a bad way right? Well, not exactly in that way... When I say obession I meant in the way that I wanted to learn more about this so called "Aspergers Syndrome"... I mean you would want to learn something that you have if you found out right? Well, that's just how I felt.

At first I just decided to go along with it. But from what I learned, it was actually my doctor that dignosed me. After he did, he actually told my mother what I had and soon my mother told me. I guess my doctor was dignosing me because I was kind of acting well... Strange and not acting normal. I guess I wasn't acting normally like a normal child would. At that point, I guess that was why my doctor was dignosing me.

It wasn't until my later teens when the thought came into my mind to actually print off about Aspergers. Because I was curious. When I read about all the things that I was reading, I was actually shocked as if my mouth dropped open. Aspergers was found by someone named Hans Asperger. What he did is he took a group of children who was not acting normal in the same way I was... Later he found out that there was something wrong with those kids. Not in a bad way, but in a way that they had a disorder.

Soon after I found out that I had Aspergers about reading about it, it turns out that Aspergers has many names for it (Aspergers, AD, AS, Aspergers Syndrome etc..) But the thing about Aspergers is its a social disorder and I can act weird in social situations... Not only acting weird but there is a chance that I could say something that I may later regret without realizing it. Now you may ask how I realize it soon after right? Well, the way I figure it out is if someone stops talking to me for some reason or gives me dirty looks... At that point I realize that I must have said something that I regret or its possible that I did something.

I try my very hardest to act normally as normal that I can. I try to smile and walk like a normal person, as if I didnt have this disorder. But believe me, its harder than you think it is. And I will tell you how difficult it is... But the thing is, I soon realized that I have to accept that I have it and deal with it.