blue (book one) - h.s. ✔️ watty's 2019

chapter 80

"Thank you for bringing me, Jax. It's really great that you're part of such an organization."

We left the heartwarming celebration a little while ago. Those kids are some of the most strongest people I'll ever know. I can't get over how confident they are that things will be better in the end. They're strength is inspiring.

I've now spent most of my day with Jax, but oddly, I'm not tired of him. Every second I seem to spend with him is overwhelmingly pleasant. There's never a dry moment. He's so multi-faceted that it's perplexing to see and hear of the many types of communities and clubs he has his hand dipped in. I don't think I've ever met anyone like him - well, except Harry. He doesn't seem to be tired of me either. Like he was when I first me t him, he's incredibly invested in my personal life. However, this time it's not as intrusive. With Kate and Alex now being a thing it gets lonely sometimes back at the house. And I can't stay at Harry's all the time - though most of my stuff is in his room. Jax is a good refreshment in my life.

"You're always welcome. We're always looking for volunteers. Hit me up anytime," Jax breathes as he turns into my street.

Right before we left the hospital, he had invited me to the small get together Amy and Zayn mentioned the last I saw them. At first, I was for sure that I wasn't going to attend, but after this incredible day with Jax I'm positive it won't be that bad. He's more than aware of what makes me uncomfortable by now, and respects my boundaries. He's always so respectful.

I haven't really talked to the two since then. Partly because I don't have either of their numbers and partly because I just don't think we'd have anything in common - except Harry with Amy, of course. I don't know. I guess I really shouldn't be so close-minded. Some of the greatest people in my life, probably even the world, are this bunch of tattooed, piercing-wearing bunch I can't seem to get enough of.

It's still light out now. The sun is no longer at the center of the sky, but instead is nearing the ground. It doesn't take long before my house comes into view. Except, there's now three vehicles in the driveway.

"What is Harry doing here?" I whisper to myself louder than I mean to.

Jax looks at me worriedly before turning off the engine to his truck.

"Hey, is everything okay?" he questions, turning his body to face me in the car.

"No, yea, I'm just overthinking things. Let me grab my coat and I'll be right back," I say struggling to open the car door.

For whatever reason, I feel dirty. Yes, Jax and I are strictly friends and that's all, but there's something about Harry not knowing about our day today that terrifies me. To be frank, I shouldn't even be this worried. He's the one that forgot about me. I mean, who cares if I'm hanging out with one of his frat brothers? One of the people he's warned me to stay away from?

I'm my own person.

"Would you mind if I came inside? I have to really use the bathroom," he speaks lightly. His cheeky smile is so hard to say no to.

"Of course," I finally breathe reluctantly. I can't hide our friendship forever.

Walking to the front of my house is intense to say the least. I'm not sure how Harry is going to react to me showing up with Jax. I'm not sure how he'll react when he finds that I've been with him the entire day.

Wait.

Again.

Why is he here?

I open the door to see Harry and Alex playing Fortnite in the living room, of course. I know they're relationship is not great, but this is their way of trying to bond. Both of them promised me to at least try. It's nice to see them holding up their side of the deal. They don't seem to notice that we're now inside the house until I accidentally slam the door shut.

"Parker?" Harry turns around with a look of confusion before it turns into anger.

"I thought you said he was out with Kate," he violently shoves an unsuspecting Alex.

"Dude, what the fuck?" Alex shouts with his fist clenched.

"Kate said he was!"

Harry is quick to his feet after his sudden outburst. He leaves a fuming Alex behind as he saunters over towards me and an eerily calm Jax. Instinctively, Jax steps in front of me slightly, shielding me with half of his body. Harry's eyes are unreadable and wild as they shift back and forth between mine and Jax's position. I've seen Harry angry a handful of times now, but I don't think I'll ever get used to the intensity of his mood changes; they're unreal.

"What the fuck is this?" he barks gesturing between the sandy-haired boy and I.

"Are you fucking my boyfriend?" he spits only inches away from Jax's face.

He's completely blown this all out of proportion. He looks unrecognizable like this. I've never seen him so demanding, so jealous? It hurts me slightly that he'd assume Jax and I were doing things behind his back again. I could never hurt him like that. He hasn't even looked at me since I first walked in; his attention has been focused everywhere but me.

"Harry!" I shout, grabbing his attention. I scare both him and Jax standing beside me with the sudden loudness.

"Would you just breathe?" I begin, referring to the calming techniques I've recommended for him to use. His eyes are strongly staring hard into my own as he registers my words. Though he's not audibly counting, I can tell that he is mentally counting down from ten. It seems as if I can hear everything that's going on in his head. He doesn't break away from my gaze as he visibly relaxes. I can tell that it's a bit awkward for Jax as Harry has yet to remove himself from the close proximity whilst still looking at me. It doesn't take much longer before he opens his mouth, a lot calmer, to speak.

"Do you care to explain yourself?" he speaks emotionlessly as he fixes his body to point directly at me. Before I have time to respond he has me by my upper-arm, pulling me into the hallway. Then, Jax's strong hand latches onto the arm thats not being tugged harshly by Harry.

"It's fine," I breathe calmly, reassuring Jax. He smiles warmly before he lets go of me. Though I'm not looking at him now, I can feel Harry absolutely fuming at the interruption beside me. His hold is tight on me; so tight I'm sure it'll leave a bruise. Jax's attention switches from me to the green-eyed boy coldly. I know that Jax is the president of Harry's frat - Alex's too! But their dynamic is so weird: the trio. They act as if their relationships are irreversibly strained. Just another thing to add to the long list of untold secrets.

Harry continues to pull me into one of the back rooms violently, and just before the door closes, I see Jax and Alex whispering harshly at one another.