such a softer sin | gerbert

chapter fifty eight

Wind blows the cold air into their faces as the group of friends leave the restaurant. Everyone talking and laughing as they walk along the dark sidewalk, all in their own conversations with each other. It's been an amazing day, they all had so much fun hanging out and talking. Gerard hasn't done something like this since he lost contact with his old friends.

Gerard smiles as he watches Pete wrap his arm around a shivering Mikey whose wearing his coat. He's so happy for his little brother, that he found a man to treat him well. That he accepts himself for who he loves. Glad Mikey doesn't have to through the pain and shame that him and Bert have just to be in love.

"So when are you coming back Bert? We miss having you around the aopartment, it's not the same without you." Quinn asks curiously. Believing that Bert's there just to help Gerard out, which isn't a complete lie. Mikey feels much safer at night knowing that Bert's in the apartment.

"I'm not sure, a few weeks maybe. I just don't want to leave them knowing that they're not safe, ya'know?" Bert explains to him. Looking at Gerard who walks in the front while talking with Jeph. He misses them more than anything, but he doesn't want to go back. He really loves being with him and Mikey.

"I get it. You're a great guy, I'm glad that you met Gerard, he's really amazing." Dan says. Noticing Bert constantly staring at Jeph who keeps flirting with the red head. Knowing that him and Bert are more than friends.

"He really is. I'm really glad you guys like him, I know we don't usually let anyone into our small group." Bert smiles. Him and the guys have been friends since highschool, Quinn even longer. So the fact that they were so quick to invite Gerard over and stuff was shocking, but really makes Bert happy.

Bert pauses when he glances over, seeing Jeph take and hold Gerard's hand as they walk. Bert takes a deep breath, brushing it off. He continues talking with them, happy to spend time with them after being gone for the past month and a half.

"Hey Gee?" Mikey asks walking over to his brother from Pete as they walk. Gaining his attention instantly, smiling at his happy younger brother. "I-Is it kay- okay if Pete stays over tonight?"

"Of course Mikes. But the door stay open, understand?" Gerard says, reminding his brother about the rule. He trsuts Mikey, he knows there's no way in hell Mikey would sleep with him after only just getting together. But Gerard just wants to be sure that Mikey's going to be okay. Making sure that he can check in on them easily.

Mikey's very gullible when it comes to love. He just wants to be sure that Pete isn't going to hurt him. He doesn't think Pete would, but Gerard doesn't take chances when it comes to his family.

As they leave town and approach the apartments, they say their goodbyes. Jeph softly kisses Gerard's cheek, making Gerard's heart implode. The four of them enter the apartment, all exhausted but really happy after an amazing night out. Especially Mikey.

Mikey hugs Gerard and Bert goodnight before running off to his room, cracking the door like Gerard told him. Bert and him go to the bedroom closing and locking the door behind them. Gerard can't help but to blush when he realizes he's still wearing Jeph's warm and cozy jacket.

"Do you like him?" Bert blurts rather randomly when he notices Gerard playing with the sleeve of the jacket belonging to his berst frined. Making Gerard's eyebrows furrow as he look back at him.

"What? Why would you even ask me that Bert, he's your best friend. You're the only guy I'm interested in, you know that." Gerard says. Feeling like Bert doesn't trust him if he feels the need to ask something like that. Even though he knows why Gerard's not objecting to it.

"I know, I'm sorry. It's just you seems to get really flustered whenever he hits on you." Bert apologizes, knowing it was unfair of him to say. He trusts Gerard, knows that Gerard loves him. It's just his guilt that's eating Bert up inside.

"Well I mean of course I enjoy the sweet compliments and stuff but he'll never be you. No one will ever be you. I mean, come on, you're one in a million baby." Gerard smiles, earning a laugh in return from Bert. Feeling so much better after hearing Gerard say that.

"Thank you so much, and thank you for putting up with me. These past few weeks especially. I know it's been hard on you, wheather or not you admit it." Bert says. Hand playing with his red hair as his other rests on his hip.

"Don't thank me. This is what boyfriends are for, right? So you do admit that there's something going on." Gerard points out, Testing to see if he can bring this up, seeing if Bert may be willing to talk about it right now.

Though all he gets is a kiss and smile. "Come on, come shower with me babydoll."

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Gerard wakes hearing Bert mumbling in his sleep, feeling him tremble. But over that he hears a voice from the hall. Glancing over, he reads the alarm clock. 2:30 am. Gerard manages to get out of the bed without waking or triggering Bert out of his nightmare.

Gerard finds some sweatpants and a t-shirt scattered along his room floor before leaving the bedroom. Walking down the hall and towards the sound of the voice. It growing louder as he approaches Mikey's room.

Peaking in the cracked door, his heart warms. His brother rests into Pete's embrace who reads to him, like Gerard does. That's when he hears the guys outside, it must have woken them both up and startled Mikey like it usually does. Since Pete was here to comfort and calm him, he didn't go get in bed with the couple or wake Gerard up.

Gerard doesn't inturrupt them, just backs away and continues down the hall and into the living room. Sitting on the couch, unable to go back to sleep now that he's woken up. It's been such an amazing week, he doesn't want the good times to end.

But he knows that sooner or later he's going to have to bring up some things to him that may change a lot. It may cause Bert to loose it on him, but it needs to happen. Bert can't keep going like this, it's burying him alive.

[im sorry i know this one was highkey boring and short but uhhh fillers.]