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song stuff / other shit

[ cool i've lost all motivation bc !! i'm dreading february 10th now!! (it's the day of a funeral for a family member who passed away in december (rlly long story and i'll end up crying if i think about it too long))

so,,, here's shit bc like i just need to relax but?? it's hard

- lew. ]

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a monster au thing i started and never finished was gonna be chase convincing logan to go do something dumb with her and when harry finds out and gets angry, chase is like "yo logan i got u bro" and gives harry a 'get out of jail free' card from a monopoly game

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based on something i found when i cleaned out my makeup box, there was like a set of mini palettes that i had exactly one (1) of, called nude dude and it was pretty much like a little mockup magazine and when you opened it up, it was a drawing of a guy where the little pan of eyeshadow powder covered from the guy's chest to his knees and the big question my mother had was "i wonder if there's really a naked guy under there when you use all the eyeshadow"

anyway, i have a feeling that'd be something dumb that chloe would send lewis and then lewis is just like 'wtf' and gives them to his friends

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song stuff-

- lewis would definitely cover "i found a reason" by the velvet underground bc it's sweet and like this goes along with all the wedding shit too

- also: hayley williams' 'petals for armor' project is stunning and
a) "simmer" and "leave it alone" are a couple of my favorite songs now
and b)
(my favorite lyric from simmer is: if my child needed protection from a fucker like that man, i'd sooner gut him cuz nothing cuts like a mother)
(my favorite lyric from leave it alone is: now that i want to live, well now everyone around me is dying)
and c)
petals for armor would've been a great name for a lewis thing and i wish i would've thought of it

- "loneliness for love" by lovelytheband could be logan?? one of the lyrics is ' i keep mistaking loneliness for love, i'm trying to find myself inside someone ' idk?? i get logan vibes

- last night i was listening to "more" by halsey and i just got really over emotional bc it reminded me of someone i don't talk to anymore and haven't talked to as a friend in literally like seven months and my first reaction was "wow i should send this to her" and my second reaction was the sudden urge to vomit and i'm still not over it

while i'm on the topic of her,,, i end up torturing myself more often now than i used to by looking at her social media, especially instagram captions, and it makes me physically sick to see that she's using songs as captions that i held so close to my heart and shared with her
like,,, i can't listen to at least ten songs bc they make me think of her and i hate to think of it like this but it's like,,, is this how lewis felt when he and logan didn't talk?? why am i easily attached to stupid bitches?? why am i a stupid bitch??

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anyway i think for the foreseeable future i'm mostly gonna be writing rlly fluff pieces and friendship things bc that's what makes me happy and i need that rn