Lovers' Maehem

Chapter 65

Maeve

October 30, 2181

5:43am

Today is Nate's trial. I'm not exactly excited, but at the same time, I've wanted all of this to be done for months. I haven't felt like myself at all, so I bake to keep my mind off of it. Griffin is being really nice about it, but I can see his disappointment when I won't do missions. He started one against the Malcoms. I couldn't say that Griffin knows about my relationship with them. I tried to tell him I was going to, but then he was pushing me to join the mission too so I said I wasn't ready. Truthfully I do want to do a mission, especially after the trials are done, and I'm done with my family. I tried to repair my relationship with Indie and Nate. Nate and I... we are on okay terms, though today he's probably being sentenced to a very long time in prison. Indie wouldn't even talk to me. The one time I saw her and apologized and all that, she refused to talk. Either way, today is trial day. I am going to have to sit there and watch Nate be sentenced to... I'm not sure how long. It won't take too long, since he's admitted he was guilty, it's just a matter of them going over his and his lawyers arguments and agreeing on a sentence. The trial doesn't start until 9, but I was having trouble sleeping, so I got up made a french pressed coffee for Griffin and I, as well as heated up the croissants from yesterday.

"Morning," Griffin says, kissing me, as he rolls into the kitchen. His hair is a mess and it makes me want to just go over and fix it. We are on better terms the past few weeks, especially since I started going to a therapist. There are a lot of cliches around it, but really it's just someone to talk to and help work through your issues.

"Can we get there early?" I ask Griffin, "I was to see if I can talk to Nate, given it may be the last time for a while." Griffin nods,

"How about you go shower, while I clean up around the place," he says. I nod and immediately let myself collapse into the warmth on the shower. I look down at my scar, that while small, is quite evident. It looks like a c-section scar and that hurts even more. I hated losing Liam and it made me think another baby could never replace him. Although now I'm realizing that maybe losing a baby doesn't mean I shouldn't have others. Maybe I should raise another baby with the life I could've dreamed of for Liam. I want a family, but I feel like Griffin isn't ready to hear that, so... well I avoid it slightly. When I dry off I grab the dark grey dress from my closet and silver heels. It's not as formal as a court since it isn't the federal level court, and well, no one needs to know I'm there.

Arriving at the court brings back memories of my parents and their execution. Memories I've been trying very hard to keep locked away.

"You okay?" I nod and continue walking into the building. When I reach a police officer I approach him carefully.

"Hi, Maeve Colton," I say. The Colton name holds a lot of power, no harm in using it. "My brother is being brought in front of the court today, may I see him?" I ask politely.

"Name?" he says. For a moment I'm confused, because I told him. "Name of your brother," he repeats annoyed with me.

"Nathanial Blake," I say hesitantly.

"I'm sorry miss, he's unable to see anyone. You can visit him afterwards if he is given visitation rights," he tells me. I look to Griffin pleading, but the police officer doesn't seem to like that. "No name or power can change that, he is unable to have visitors, you may wait in the courtroom for the trial to start." I sigh and Griffin hugs me tight as we head to the court. We are one of the only people there other than the state attorney representing the common person's interest and a seat for Nate and his lawyer. We sit down in the first row since it's a tiny room. Soon enough Nate walks in, glancing at me. He offers a weak smile, and I smile back.