~ I'll have to be their light ~
Fear: I have not felt fear for a while now.
Matter of fact, I haven't felt much of anything for a while now. The only thing I can feel is the pain.
I think a lot. It's really the only thing I can do here. The only thing I can do without trouble or consequences.
They tell me that I deserve it. That I deserve to be here locked up in a cellar. Letting them do what they want with me: having me fight man-made monsters, experiment on me...
I can't help but believe them. I deserve to be here... I couldn't even save my own mother. I couldn't save her... I was the only one who could had saved her, and I couldn't. I failed. It's has to be my fault for being useless and not saving her. It's my fault for not having a stupid quirk. It's my fault for being here.It's all my fault.
They tell me that. A nagging voice in the back of my mind always whispers that I shouldn't listen to them. That I should stand my ground. But it's only a mere whisper, and how could that one small voice be right when so many voices say the opposite?
So I came to the conclusion: I do deserve it.
So... it's okay when they hurt me and grab me. It's okay when they experiment on me. I deserve whatever pain it is that they give. Because that's what everyone says.
Mom would agree that I deserve this pain.
So that's why I'm not scared when I overheard them talking about throwing me out. Not even with the realization that I had fresh stab wounds.
I'll be fine. Even though they said it should kill me.
I'll live.
I'll find a way to live. I don't want death, because life is all I have. And I don't want to loose that too.
Now I'm just staring at my blood-soaked door for them to come and get me. My whole life is just a waiting game.
I'm not scared of the real world.
But I know I'm going to live,
I have to,
I know there are others out there like me.
I have to save them.I have to be the light in their dark that I've always wanted but never deserved. They told me I didn't deserve to be saved.
But they... they deserve to be saved.
And I'll be damned if I don't help them.
I will be their light.
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Warnings:
Dark Subjects
Mentioning of Sexual Assult
Death/Murder
Gore
Anxiety/Panic attacks
Triggers
Torture
Kidnapping
Slight Mature Mentioning
Self Inflicted Harm~MOST OF THESE WARNINGS WILL BE INTRODUCED LATER IN THE STORY~
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Fanfictiony'all i'll be so for real this will be finished but it will take 20 years and some sort of godly substance. i edited it to be 1st person bc i was going through smth and i hate it so i gotta edit it again and i hate some things in this story but the...