ENVY | SDS Present ✔ (TO BE EDITED)

Chapter 8

It was almost a week when Caius and I last talked. Hindi na nya ulit ako kinausap o pinansin. I was, of course, broken hearted but it is what I need so that I can move on from him slowly. I need to fully accept that Caius and I will never have a chance and that I should stop from dreaming and hoping for him.

Kinabukasan nang araw na iyon ay hindi na sumabay si Caius sa lunch nilang magkakaibigan sa carinderia ni Lola Sol. At first, I thought that he was just busy or what but when Pier told Lola Sol that he was eating lunch with Athena, I got it that he is avoiding me. Kahit paano ay natuwa ako dahil alam kong masaya na ulit si Caius dahil okay na sila ni Athena. Okay nga iyong sabay na silang nagla-lunch para makapag-bonding at mas maging close pa sila. I am not bitter but envious? Yes, of course but I accept my situation.

Sa classroom naman ay hindi rin kami nagpapansinan o nag-uusap ni Caius which is really normal. Regarding naman sa thesis namin ay sina Rocel or Kurt ang kumakausap sa akin kung anong dapat kong gawin. And as much as possible, I stop myself from looking at Caius dahil mas nahihirapan lang akong kalimutan ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.

Minsan naman ay sumasabay na mag-lunch sa akin si Wayne sa carinderia. He sometimes joke about making our relationship greater than being friends and I would just laugh it off. Kahit nag-momove on ako kay Caius ay hindi ko sasamantalahin ang pagka-gusto sa akin ni Wayne para makalimutan ko sya. I don't want to hurt Wayne just so I can forget Caius.

I sighed when I looked at myself in the mirror. I tried to fake a smile hoping that it would turn into a real one. According to studies, kapag sinubukan daw na ngumiti kahit hindi ka naman talaga masaya ay magiging okay ang feeling mo afterwards dahil sa psychological factors. I find it effective dahil ito ang madalas kong ginagawa kapag malungkot ako.

When I think I am okay, I started doing my makeup. Today is Athena's debut but her real birthday was yesterday. She did not joined us for dinner last night because she and Caius went on a date as his treat for her. Tita Karen did not stopped in rubbing it in my face until I finished eating kaya halos hindi ako nakatulog ng maayos dahil sa inggit na bumabagabag sa dibdib ko.

After finishing my light makeup, I ironed my hair before my bangs. Lalong humaba ang buhok ko dahil sa pagkaka-plantsa nito tapos ay inilagay ko ito sa isang low ponytail. I put some hairspray on my bangs to make them stay out of my face. Medyo mahaba na rin kasi ito kaya abala na ito sa paningin ko. I applied another layer of hairspray on my hairline to perfect my sleek ponytail.

Then I removed my bathrobe ang carefully wore my gown. After zipping it up, I stared at myself in the body mirror. I really fell in love at this gown in the moment I first laid my eyes to it. It is a pale pink tulle long gown with beaded sheer bodice. It is spaghetti strap with a thigh-high slit on my left leg. The v-neck neckline perfectly hid but emphasized my average-sized breasts. The gown complimented my skin and height and even though the design is simple, it is elegant.

I took a last glimpse on myself in the mirror before I wore my 3-inch silver stilleto then I grabbed my purse and my gift before going out of my room. Nauna na sina Daddy sa venue at pina-hintay na lang nya ako kay Kuya Joey.

After almost half an hour, we reached the venue. Since may pa-red carpet keme ang debut ni Athena ay paisa-isa ang entrance. Isang private at malaking banquet hall ang venue ng debut ni Athena at umaasa ako na ganito rin ang debut ko.

Ipapaki-usap ko ito kay Daddy kahit ang kapalit pa ay hindi na ako mag-shoshopping kahit kailan. Mommy and I dreamt of my debut and that's why I am really looking forward to it. Gusto ko na kahit wala na si Mommy ay matuloy ang plano namin.

When the car is already on the entrance, the valet opened my door and I walked out. I took deep breaths before I walked inside. I stopped myself in saying 'wow' when I saw the insides of the venue. It looks like I am in some fairytale dahil sa bongga ng lugar.