ENVY | SDS Present ✔ (TO BE EDITED)

Chapter 9

CAIUS

"I am just your classmate and your girlfriend's half sister so you don't have a say to what I should or should not do." Malamig na sabi ni Finn bago sya sumakay sa tricycle.

She's right and I know it too pero hindi ko alam bakit hindi ko napipigilan ang sarili ko at lumalagpas ako sa border namin ni Finn. For the past few days, I've been distracted because of Finn. Kahit kasama ko si Athena ay sumasagi sa isip ko ang kapatid nya.

Kung noong una ay si Finn ang kinukumpura ko kay Athena ngayon ay baligtad na. Especially when I knew that Finn is taking care of Kitty. Si Athena kasi ay ayaw sa mga palaboy at mga street children. I don't want to compare anyone to somone but I can't stop myself to see the the difference between Athena and Finn.

What bothers me the most is the thought of Finn and Wayne being together. Hindi ko alam bakit nararamdaman ko na parang ayaw ko silang magkasama. The mere idea of them being in a relationship suffocates me and it shouldn't be because I love Athena at dapat wala na sa akin kung sino ang magiging karelasyon ni Finn.

A small part of me tells me that I like Finn but it's wrong because it is Athena who I should love. I shouldn't be thinking or even liking another woman.

So after that talk with Finn, I decided to avoid Finn and fix Athena and I's relationship. Hindi na ako sumabay na kumain sa mga kaibigan ko para na rin maiwasan ko si Finn at para na rin makabawi kay Athena dahil sa pagtatalo namin. And since I spent more time with her, I got the chance to know her better.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ngayon ko lang nakita ang ugali nyang mainitin ang ulo. We always end up arguing just because of a small problem but at the end of the day, she'll apologize dahil daw stressed lang sya. Iniintindi ko na lang sya because I always remind myself that I love her.

In class, I tried not to look behind to avoid seeing Finn and somehow it helped me in trying to forget my weird feelings for her not until I saw her in Athena's debut.

Muntik ko nang makalimutan na kasama ko pala si Athena nang makita ko si Finn na nanunuod sa entance namin ni Athena. She looks elegant with her look which made it hard for me to not glance at her once in a while while we were on stage.

"Her gown was so... trashy." I heard Athena said when Finn left the stage after her message.

Gusto kong sabihin na hindi naman mukhang basura ang damit ni Finn pero ayaw ko namang magselos ulit si Athena. Sinubukan kong burahin ang pang-iinsulto na sinabi ni Athena mula sa isip ko kasama ng iba pang pang-iinsulto na narinig ko sa kanya magmula nang sabayan ko syang mag-lunch. I love Athena no matter what. I said to myself.

After the ceremony, I saw Finn walked out of the hall. I want to follow her but Athena pulled me in the middle of the hall to join her friends in dancing. Habang busy sya sa pakikipag-sayaw kasama ang mga kaibigan nya ay pumuslit muna ako para uminom ng tubig.

The bar is at the side and while drinking, I glanced at the slit between the big curtains. Muntik ko ng maibuga ang iniinom ko nang makita ko sina Wayne at Finn sa garden na nag-sasayaw. Mabilis an kumalabog ang puso ko at mahigpit kong nahawakan ang baso nang makita ang pag-tama ni Finn sa katawan ni Wayne.

The asshole took advantage to it and he snaked his arms on Finn's shoulders. Pero parang naka-hinga ako ng maluwag nang makita na hindi sya yinakap pabalik ni Finn. It's clear that Finn doesn't like Wayne but the asshole kept on dreaming that she has. He is lucky that Danae still doesn't know at kapag napahamak si Finn dahil kay Wayne ay dadalhin ko sya sa impyerno.

I blinked many times because of what I thought. Heto na naman ako. Iniisip ko na naman si Finn. Naisip ko na balikan na lang si Athena para mawala sa isip ko si Finn pero bago pa man ako makatayo ay nakita ko na sya na papalapit sa akin.