Honey (BxB)

~47~

Jesse

"You can't stay here like this. It's been four days," Mom told me while rubbing her temple. 

I looked down at the empty ice cream bowl in my hand. I didn't go to college for four days. It's Friday today and I know mom is not going to let me hide away anymore. I have to go to class on Monday... 

I don't want to... 

"We understand that you're feeling down but missing so many classes will make it hard for you in the future. I don't want this incident to drag down your grades," She said, getting up from the chair. She walked up to the bed to sit with me on the bed. "Tristan came again… " She said in a low voice. Afraid I'm going to cry again. It was like that most of the time. Whenever someone says his name, I'll start to cry. God, I'm such a cry baby. 

I didn't say anything and tried to give her a smile even though I know she can easily see through me. Tristan comes here every day after that incident. He doesn't come in. I told mom not to let him in and that's what she did.

 He was stubborn though. 

He came here every day to see if he could get a chance to see me.

"I'll go to class on Monday," I said, giving her a smile. I wanted to change the subject from Tristan to something else. 

She nodded before ruffling my hair. "I made your favorite sandwich," She took the empty bowl from my hand and stood up to leave. "I'll get it for you. You go freshen up."

I sighed and checked my phone. There were several messages from Dylan asking me how I'm doing. He came over a few times and I told him everything that happened. He was really understanding. 

He also called Tristan every curse word in this universe. 

I looked up when I heard a knock on the door. "Come in," I said and paused. My voice sounded so unfamiliar even to me because of how little I've spoken to people for the past few days. 

Lisa opened the door with a gentle smile on her face. "Hey…" She said, walking up to me. 

"If you're here to lecture me or something, then you can go because mom already did it for two hours," I groaned. 

"Don't worry, I'm not here for that," She chuckled before sitting on the bed with me. "I... Uhh…I saw Tristan today. He was in front of our house when I came back. We didn't talk but he looked messed up…just like you," 

"Like me?"

"Yeah, like he hadn't slept for days," 

I looked down, not knowing what to say. I don't want to think about him but he's always on my mind and it's like torture. 

"Jess, tell me what happened, please... " Lisa asked, one of her hands gently rubbing my back. 

I bit my lip. I don't wanna tell her right now. I don't know how to or what to tell her actually. "I'm sorry... I don't want to talk about it right now," I told her. I can't talk about it without bawling my eyes out and I don't have the energy to do that right now. 

She understood me right away. I could see that she knows something about what happened. "Umm... Is it like what happened with Paul?" She asked me cautiously. 

I looked down. "Worse," I whispered out. Afraid my voice is gonna break if I talk loud. 

Lisa then pulled me closer to hug me tight and it took everything in me to not break down in front of her. 

"It's gonna be okay. I know you're really strong," She smiled at me after leaning back. "You should shower and maybe go for a walk. It'll help you clear your mind and get some fresh air. You look like shit,"

"Shut up…" I groaned.

She chuckled at my annoyance. "I'm serious. Go for a walk. It'll help you," She patted my back before going out. 

Maybe she's right. I should go for a walk. I haven't seen the outside world for four days....

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Sorry for the late update♥