Honey (BxB)

~83~

Dylan 

Three weeks. It's been three weeks and four days since Jake announced he has a girlfriend. I've been trying to lose my feelings for him. Keyword trying. 

Every time I try not to think about him, he's the only thing on my mind. It's exhausting, trying to act like I don't care about what's happening. 

Jake and his girlfriend are sitting with us for lunch nowadays. I wanted to get up and run away every time they flirt in front of me but I can't. That would be rude....

I don't know how long I have to keep up this act... I don't know how long it will take me to move on from him..... I hope it happens soon. I can't act like I'm okay for too long. 

I stabbed on my veggies as I heard them giggle and whisper beside me. Jesse placed a hand on my knee to comfort me but nothing's gonna ease the pain I'm feeling right now. 

"Eat," He whispered in my ear. I looked down at my plate, I haven't eaten a single bite. A sigh slipped past my lips as I slumped back on the chair. I'm not hungry. I'm never hungry when I'm with them. My appetite automatically disappears whenever I see them being lovey-dovey.

I took a quick glance at Jake and his girlfriend to see him looking at me with a frown on his face. 

Shit! 

Did I make it obvious? 

Panicking, I took my fork and tried to eat as if nothing happened. After a minute, when I peeked at him again, he was back flirting with his girlfriend. 

I sighed in relief. 

Jake had tried to make up conversations with me but I gave him some awkward replies and ran off saying some half-assed excuses. I tried my best to ignore him but he was so persistent in talking to me sometimes that I had no choice but to talk to him. 

There is a lot of difference when I talk to him now. We just have simple conversations. We don't argue, do childish things, or make fun of each other. We just........ talk. 

He doesn't ruffle my hair anymore and keeps a fair distance from me now. I don't know if it's because of something I did or because he has a girlfriend now. Whatever it is, I think it's for the best. I don't think I'll ever be able to lose my feelings for him if he treats me like how we were before. 

After lunch, I quickly excused myself to go to the library. The library and the art room were my safe place when I felt like I needed some time alone. But my plans were quickly ruined when my idiot best friend decided to chase after me. 

"Dylan stop," Jesse grabbed my hand making me stop on my track. "We need to talk, come with me," He said as he dragged me to one of the benches nearby. 

"Jesse, what are you doing? I have class in ten minutes-"

"We're skipping, just come with me." He said as he continued to drag me. Jesse sat me down on the bench and took out his phone, quickly typing something on it before stuffing it back into his pocket. 

"I can't believe you're telling me to skip," I chuckled. "Are you okay?" I looked at him quizzically to which he replied with an eye roll. 

"I'm okay, it's you who's not okay." He said, making me frown.

"I'm...I-I'm okay, " Fuck my stutter.

"Really?" Jesse gave me a pointed look before he gripped my shoulder, making me look up at him. "Dylan, you haven't been eating properly for a month, anyone could easily see that from the way you are now. You look so tired all the time. You're losing weight. Your eyes look puffy, they have dark circles under them. A clear proof that you're not sleeping properly too. You don't talk much and always have your head in the clouds and I know that you're not thinking anything positive from how things are going.... I'm scared." Jesse finished, his face laced with worry. I just looked at him dumbfounded. Did I look that much messed up? 

This is embarrassing. 

I'm being so overdramatic. 

All of this for a one-sided love? Jake doesn't even know I love him. 

And here I am, being so extra. 

This is why nobody loves me. 

I'm so unlovable. 

"I-I...... " I stuttered, not knowing how to respond to him. "I.... Am I o-overreacting?"

"No no, you're not overreacting, okay?" Jesse said, his hands now cupping both my cheeks. "Sometimes we can't control how we feel, also you see Jake every day making it hard for you to forget him. You're not overreacting, don't think like that." He shook his head. 

"B-But we didn't even have anything b-between us..... It was just an unrequited love...." I looked down. "I'm so stupid,"

"Look here, you're.not.stupid, okay? Going to confess to someone and then finding out they have a girlfriend, and then having to spend time with both of them to watch them being so close in front of you is a nightmare for anyone. You're not stupid or overreacting, but I cannot let you fall into depression because of it. I know you're strong. Fight all those bad thoughts away.... Please don't do this to yourself." Jesse hugged me, his eyes brimming with tears. I sighed and hugged him back, rubbing his back to soothe him. 

"Hey, are you guys alright? " Jesse and I both turned to see Tristan looking at us worriedly. The moment Jesse made eye contact with him, he rushed over to Jesse. "What happened, baby?" Tristan asked, cupping the smaller boy's face, panic taking over his features. 

"N-nothing, I was just talking to Dylan and I got emotional."  He blushed. 

I looked at them with a small smile. They are so adorable. I'm happy Jesse found someone like Tristan. They're perfect together. 

"Are you okay?" Tristan asked, turning his attention to me. 

I smiled and gave him a small nod. 

"So... we're skipping?" Tristan asked to which Jess and I both nodded. "Do you guys want to go out? "

"Yeah, we can buy ice cream and popsicles," Jesse chirped as his face lit up. I smiled, little things like these make me happy... 

Jesse stood up as he grabbed my hand but I quickly stopped him. "Hey, I have something to tell you," I said, making him stop to look at me confused. "I'm thinking about moving out of my parent's house," 

"What happened? Is there anything wrong?" 

"No, it's just.... It's just mom, she's worried about me... She noticed how I am.... You know she had heart surgery not too long ago, I can't make her worry anymore. It's not good for her health. I.......I can't fake another smile to her any longer.... I feel like I'm doing something wrong." I sighed. "Can you guys do me a favor and search for a small apartment for me?" 

Tristan nodded. "I'll do it, my friend is a real estate agent, I'll tell him about this." He said, making me smile. 

"Thank you," I told him to which he just waved me off with a 'no problem'. 

"Come on, let's go for ice cream!" Jesse bounced around as he grabbed our hands and dragged us towards the exit. 

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