Inevitable Love ≫ J.G

Chapter XXXIX

10:35am

The only sound filling the room was my soft breathing as I stared up at the ceiling, the blinds shadow casting a pretty design.

Jack and Johnson had left for business reasons and I finally had time alone by myself. I had time to finally think about these last couple of months.

Not that I didn't love being around Jack and all his friends because I did. Some people just need some time alone every once in awhile to just think.

The only words to describe these past months are;

- Eventful
- Chaotic
- Amazing

And to be honest, I don't think I'd change it for anything.

Jack and I are closer even through all the arguments and fights we've had. We know each other's jealous ways. Those jealous ways show how much we truly care about losing the other.

Saying he makes me happy would be a understatement. It was a foreign feeling, a feeling I don't think I'd ever get use to. But also a feeling I loved more than anything.

There was something about Jack that had me so hooked.

Maybe it was the way he laughed; wide smile, teeth showing and eyes squinting almost shut.

Maybe it was the way he hugged me or held me; arms securely wrapped around my waist or around my neck as he rested his head either on-top of mine or on my shoulder.

Or maybe it was the preparation before he would kiss me; eyes locked on mine, wetting his lips teasingly slow, lifting my chin up with his thumb and index finger before slowly leaning in, eyes averting from mine to my lips.

Whatever the reason was, I knew I was wrapped around his finger and vice versa.

We both knew that, we both knew how much we wanted each other. I'm just afraid of what will happen once we finally make it a thing.

Jack was my muse, my dearest muse

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"Don't wanna break your heart, wanna give your heart a break. I know you're scared, it's wrong like you might make a mistake. There's just one life to live and there's no time to wait, to wait, so let me give your heart a break,"

"You alright babe?" Jack asked, rubbing my thigh.

I nodded, "Yeah I'm fine." I reassured him, giving him a quick smile.

We were sitting on the couch in Jack and Johnson's apartment. Jack was flicking through channels while I was deep in thought. I hadn't been able to stop thinking about Jack and I all day. I just needed some reassurance.

"You're just really quiet, what's on your mind?"

God he knew me too well.

I sighed, shifting in my seat so I was facing him, "I had some time to think today and I just couldn't help but think about..us."

"What about us?" He furrowed his eyebrow, placing the remote down and turned so he was facing me, looking at me intently.

"What are we? Are we even a thing?" I bit my lip, playing with my fingers.

"You're my girl and I'm your man. We just don't have the usual title." He explained nonchalantly

"I'm scared to put the title." I mumbled.

"What are you scared of?"

"I-I don't wanna hurt you and I don't wanna be hurt." I faltered, "I've been hurt in relationships, completely heart broken. I'm so scared for this to happen, but I want it, I want you Jack."

"And you have me."

"But what if everything goes down hill? It's only a matter of time before it doesn't, it's what happens in my relationships. We go through the honeymoon phase for like a month and then he cheats on me. I don't wanna be heart broken anymore." Tears threaten to spill from my eyes.

Jack sighed and grabbed my waist, placing me onto his lap, my legs on either side of him. He slid his hand down my arms until he grabbed my hands and wrapped them around his neck. He wiped away the tears that manage to spill from my eyes slowly.

His hands went underneath my long-sleeve black v-neck, his warm soft hands sending chills down my spine instantly.

"I'm not gonna hurt you. I may get a little jealous and protective, that's all. I would never hurt you intentionally babe. I love you." He promised, kissing my forearm.

I smiled softly, looking down. My smile soon faded away, "I don't know Jack, I'll probably end up hurting you somehow. I always seem to fuck up every good thing in my life."

Jack lifted my head with his finger and demanding me to look him in the eyes, "Then hurt me. I'll risk it if it means I get to have you."

"I'm never enough for anyone." I muttered, "they always expect more."

"You're more than enough for me. I've been dreaming for the day I met a girl like you. Now you're here and I don't wanna let you go."

"I just don't want either of us to get hurt." I admitted.

"The only way you could truly hurt me is if you left me for someone else." He reassured me.

"I don't think you'll have to worry about that." I grinned softly, running my hands through his thick hair.

"Oh? And why's that?" He smirked, drawing circles on my hip with his thumb.

"'Cause I don't want anyone else but you."

Jack smiled as he leaned in, kissing me tenderly. His hand gripped my waist tightly and pulled me into him, causing me to grind on him; eliciting a soft moan to escape from both of our lips in unison.

Jack pulled my bottom lip into his mouth, pulling away slowly with my lip in between his teeth before letting it slid out.

"Such a fucking tease." I muttered, my eyes barely open.

Jack chuckled, placing soft kisses on my jawline and neck. I was enjoying every moment, eyes closed and head tilted to give him more room for his beautiful lips to explore.

"So," he pecked my jawline, "fucking," he pecked my neck, "beautiful" he kissed my lips.

"I could kiss you all night." I mumbled truthfully. His lips were so addicting, just thinking about them on my skin turned me on and gave me chills.

"Well, I mean, I have nothing to do for the rest of the night so..." He smirked, looking down at my lips lustfully.

I giggled, shaking my head, "You're an idiot."

"I love you." He whispered, looking me in my eyes deeply.

Those three words, those three simple words falling from his lips were my fucking weakness.