I am him ✔

Chapter 5- Habits

In his haste to leave the house in the morning, and with his thoughts running wild, Arthit even forgot to open the curtains, so he opened the door of his apartment and the first thing that greeted him was the dimness of the room, that set off the desolation in the heart even more vividly.

Arthit was so disturbed that he went forward and tried to pull open the curtains, but only after pulling a corner, he couldn't help but slow down, startled. He looked through the corner of the window for a long time, and then silently let go of his hand.

Throwing his backpack on the bed, he also slumped down, and as soon as he closed his eyes, the picture of two men standing side by side under the stage confronting him made his heart sore.

Obviously, he had prepared himself mentally in advance, but he didn't expect to be easily defeated by them.

Yeah, he'd actually guessed that maybe this time it's not just the same name.

It was just that he didn't dare admit it.

He didn't dare admit anything.

On the day they separated, he didn't to dare admit that he'd been waiting for him to come out and explain, and the time that followed, he didn't dare admit that he had always been waiting for the opposite light to light up, and then, he didn't dare to admit that every time he saw the empty window there was a dull pain in his heart.

Even with the curtains drawn, he hadn't dared to look across for a long time.

And this time, he was even more afraid to admit that even after all this time, Kongpob could still affect him so deeply.

He hadn't even turned on the lights last night, hadn't even hung out the clothes he'd thrown into the washing machine.

Because he was afraid to see another person already standing in the place that used to be his on the opposite balcony.

Arthit felt as if he had been split into two personalities, one despising his no-good self and the other was really stuck in the past maze, unable to find a way out. 

What can be done about it?

He's proud, he's above it all, and he once thought he'd never know what "love" really is. 

But he didn't expect that once he fell in love, it's a bone-crushing experience that he couldn't forget even if he wanted to.

Even if you know it's not worth it.

It was probably because he was so exhausted and worn out from last night, although his mind was in a constant state of confusion. Arthit who was lying down actually fell asleep. 

he don't know how long he slept before he was awakened by a ringing phone.

As soon as he woke up, even still confused as to where he was, the familiar depression returned to his chest once more.

Arthit rubbed his face and answered the phone.

It was Knot who called, "Awake yet? We're writing our report at the usual place, do you want to come over?"

Arthit's brain was in daze for a while before he remembered that yesterday he had an appointment with them to write a report together today.

He looked at the time and saw that he had slept four or five hours since he had returned in the morning.