I am him ✔

Chapter 60- To Cry or Laugh

M had said that the last text message he sent to Arthit to apologize was sent by him himself.

Even though he didn't want to believe anything he said, Kongpob felt that M's words were true, regardless of whether it was his sixth sense or not.

The memory of the first time was a blank to him, and his feelings at the time were unknown, but the damage those three words had done to Arthit had never passed.

"What the hell is going on here, you really don't know anything at all?" Dan didn't give up asking questions.

Kongpob shook his head, now that all the information he'd pieced together from his inquiries seemed to point to one fact: "Maybe you're right, what happened with M and me...might have really been because I wanted to force Arthit to leave."

It was incredibly hard for Kongpob to get those simple-sounding words out.

He couldn't imagine how he could let Arthit go, but all the information that was now known was cruelly telling him that fact.

At that time, his life was uncertain, how could he promise Arthit his life or future?

In fact, even he himself, after completely stripping away the memories of that time, couldn't accurately understand what Kongpob's state of mind was at that time.

Perhaps it was because he understood that Arthit's character would never be able to turn back after encountering such a betrayal.

Their personal relationship had barely crossed paths and ended in such a tragic way that the news of his death on the operating table would probably never be known to Arthit.

Dan listened to him, and really looked exasperated as well, "Don't you think that's actually a pretty selfish decision? Oon he has the right to make his own choices. What if-and I mean what if-you really hadn't survived in the first place, have you ever thought, what if one day Oon finds out the truth? It's fine that he didn't stay with the person he loved the most before he died, and he even kept harboring a grudge against the other...are you trying to make him feel guilty until he dies?"

Dan's reprimand was on point, and Kongpob simply couldn't argue with it. However, he couldn't help but smile bitterly.

"Yeah, it's selfish. Maybe the truth is that I'm more selfish than you think."

Presumably, according to M, at the time, it seemed like he was afraid that Arthit didn't love him as much as he thought he did. Already uncertain of life and death, he was no longer able to bear the pain of being abandoned by his lover.

So he became the executioner who cut off their love with his own hands.

It's just that this idea is extremely stupid in the eyes of the present Kongpob.

There was another dull ache in Kongpob's heart. Being so selfish, he really didn't know what it would take to beg Arthit's forgiveness.

A few doubts swept over Dan's face.

Kongpob shook his head and didn't explain further.

It was a painful truth to tell, and he wasn't interested in telling too much about his original condition to gain Dan's sympathy.

"How is Arthit doing, is he any better?" He opened his mouth to ask.

Dan sighed, "What can he do? In front of us, even if he felt upset, he would force a smile, he was already feeling bad, and now the forum is making such a scene, that peeping maniac is simply sick, and thinks he's doing it for justice, if I knew who did it, I really want to beat her up!"