As I Am (Part 2 of There You'll Be)

A Better Place

We loaded up the car with the boxes and headed home. There weren't too many boxes to put inside but the crew showed up to welcome us home and help anyways.

We spent the next 3 hours moving boxes and unpacking and the guys ended up leaving soon after.

Once I got to the last box, Zak kissed me and told me he was headed upstairs to bed and would put both Gray & Em down too.
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I sat on the couch for a second with Gracie and buried my face in her fur.

She was my first friend in this new life and knew about our babes arrivals before we even did.

After some cuddles with Gracie, I let her outside and locked up the house. Once she came back in, we went upstairs.

The room was dark and quiet and the only sound was Zak's soft breathing.

I tapped on the lamp and the glow dimly lit the room but not enough to wake him.

It wasn't just Zak asleep in our bed, Gray was curled into the side of him while Emery was asleep on his chest.

Gray had fallen asleep with his little hand on Zak's and I couldn't handle it.

Grayson missed his Daddy. I did too in those few days but he was back and we were a family again.

I promised to never take Gray or Emery away from their Dad again.
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I smiled to myself at the perfect sight and changed into my pajamas.

Capturing my three loves all nestled together, I posted on my Instagram:
@MrsEveyBagans - "It's a better place since you came along." After one of my favorite Rachel Platten songs.

I softly kissed my boys before carefully grabbing Emery. She fussed a little but not enough to wake the other two.

I held her close and took her to her nursery. This was our first time in here since putting it together before she arrived.

The salt lamps in her room made it warm, inviting and calm. I got to choose the style of her nursery as Zak chose Grayson's.

It was a soft ivory with dusty rose accents and floral. It was my favorite room in the house and I spent several sleepless nights rocking my very pregnant belly in the rocker with a book.

Emery was a little fussy tonight. I changed her, nursed her and rocked her softly in the rocking chair while stroking her sweet face.

I held her close to me and decided to try singing to her. I sang to her a lot while I was pregnant and wanted to see if she'd go to sleep if I tried.

"...I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world"

Her eyes grew heavy and she fell fast asleep. I placed her in her crib and she didn't wake.
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I walked back to our room and carefully picked up a sleepy Grayson. He too was out like a light.

I laid him down and tucked him in. I kissed his head, gave him his favorite stuffed animal (a moose) and turned his nightlight on.

Both the kids were asleep and so was the husband, all before 10. Score!
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I climbed in bed with my husband who was wearing nothing but his boxer briefs.

Gracie has found herself to bed and was asleep on her dog bed on the floor.

I turned off the lamp and rolled over to face Zak. I gave him a kiss on his sleepy lips and rolled back over to go to sleep.

Once I rolled over, I felt a strong arm reach over me and pull me into a spooning position.

Zak buried himself into my back before inhaling my neck and letting out a sleepy sigh.

God I love this man.