Her Touch [Completed]

Twelve

The downhill portion of this book is happening... right.. about.. now.

Enjoy.

"Something bothering you, Addy?"

I look up from my salad as Kyndra and Harvey both were staring at me. I look back down and notice how I was destroying this salad with no intentions of doing so.

My mind was fuzzy.

"I'm fine."

"Bullshit." Kyndra said. "Boo, what's wrong?"

Looking at them both, I knew that they weren't going to leave this alone. I had no other choice but to lay it all out on the table.

I did a lot of thinking last night after Caleb and I got back from eating. I laid in my bed for hours thinking about Dylan, constantly torturing myself with thoughts of her.

It's because yesterday, when we were together, I felt happy. It felt like all my fears and thoughts went away when she's around me which terrifies me.

Knowing that getting close to someone is not something I can do. I don't want to deal with the emotions or feelings that comes with liking someone- not saying I like her cause I know it's just a tiny, little bitty crush that will blow over very soon.

It has to.

I can't get close to someone.

"Just thinking about how I'm going to tell my mom that I don't want.. our neighbor watching me anymore."

Kyndra gave me a confused look. "Why?"

"Cause I'm old enough to take care of myself. I wish my mom would see that."

"Addy, you're not mentally stable enough to stay by yourself. We know that," She motions towards her and Harvey. "your mom knows it and you also know it."

I stabbed my fork in my lettuce. "Well, I'm going to try and convince her to let me stay by myself. Caleb gets home at six. That's two hours I'm there alone."

"A lot can happen in those two hours." Kyndra said. She continued to look at me as she was trying to figure it all out. "What's the real reason you don't want Miss Pierce there?"

Giving her a confused look, I made a gesture with my head as I didn't understand. "Miss Pierce?"

She nods. "That's the principal's last name."

Harvey looks at her. "How did you know that? I didn't even know that."

"Maybe if you would pay attention." She shook her head before looking back at me. "So, what is it babe? What are you not telling me?"

I look at them both as they were watching me. I sigh as I look down at my salad, then got up the courage. "I think I may have a tiny.. crush on her."

"Aw!"

"It's not cute!" I placed my head in my hands. "Ugh."

I look up from my hands then saw Kyndra looking at me. "What's not cute about it? That's adorable, Addy."

Looking at her, I tried using my telepathic senses to her so I wouldn't have to say anything out loud.

It didn't work.

"I don't want to like her."

She made a gesture with her shoulders. "Cause she's your neighbor? The principal? Has a boyfriend?"

"I don't.. want to like someone. I don't want to have feelings or get close. I can't do it." Gosh, I felt like crying right now.

Kyndra must have finally realized what I was saying cause she stared at me with an expression I couldn't read. She made a face then looked down, away from me as I felt tears threatening to spill.