unexpected -Dane DeHaan fanfiction-

Chapter 64

Kim's Point Of View

Having to watch your world be put on a gurney with an oxyen mask over his mouth must be the hardest thing to do. I have been crying with my hands over my head for about five hours and now my once light blue long sleeve shirt with a snowman had a big blue moist spot in the center. Jared was asleep next to me in this foul smelling waiting room because he insisted on not letting me go through this alone.

- didn't you love yourself the way you told me you loved me - I sobbed. I didn't notice I was hyperventilating until a nurse asked to check my blood pressure just to make sure I was okay. She led me to a small room with a padded chair, desk scattered with papers, bed with white and blue sheets, and a single window that was closed due to the sudden storm going on outside. The nurse led me to the bed and made me sit down so she could take out some blood and give me two painful shots.

- I'll bring your friend in but just stay seated - she sweetly told me as I continued to shed tears of regret and shame. Not long passed before Jared came in and sat down on the padded chair.

"What happened" I asked him between sobs. He looked at me with bloodshot red eyes and gave me the saddest look anyone had ever given me.

- I didn't mean for any of this to happen Kim, I'm sorry - he said. I wiped away my tears and motioned for him to get closer. Once he was seated beside me I leaned on his shoulder and stiffled my whispers.

"If you're worried about breaking my heart, don't be. My emotions are numb from the lack of news so might as well shine some light on this unfortunate situation for both me and you - I half stuttered even though I was trying my hardest to be strong. I had to be strong for Dane. For myself. If that were me in that operating room then Dane would try to be strong. I looked at Jared and he looked away.

- All I can tell you is that Dane probably overdosed on... he overdosed on... on, cocaine. I can't tell you anymore because it's not my secret to tell but when he wakes up, you can ask him for the full truth - he sounded weak and defeated but so was I so all I did was hold back the tears brewing in my eyes.

- And if he doesn't wake up - I asked.

- Then he takes his secret to the grave because it will never my story to tell. He is going to wake though, don't even doubt it -

I felt desperate, weak, tired, sad, very sad. About ten minutes passed before the nurse returned with an envelope and five different bottles of pills.

- We'll talk later when you're more calmed but to help with that process one of the doctors asked me to give you this tension reliever shot. Please sit still as I inject you - she inched closer to my arm with the shot that would most likely put me to sleep but I didn't want to sleep.

- But I want to be present when Dane wakes up. Can't I take it later - I moved away from her putting more space between us.

- No sweetie, you need to calm down. I promise I'll wake you up when news about him surface now please let me help you - she said with a hint of shyness.

- Dane promised me he would always be by my side but where is he now. Please don't make me - I began to get nervous. She moved her head in a disapproving motion as she watched me back away from her. Jared must have passed out again because of the drugs still intact in his blood system so it was just me and the nurse.

- Fine - I said as I walked over to her. As she was about to inject me I purposely jerked my arm away and threw her little tray to ground. I wasted no time in running out the door and to the elevator. My fingers fumbled with the buttons but got the doors of the elevator closed before she could get in as well. I was currently on the third floor so I pushed the button that led me to the first floor and ran when I reached it. I ran to nowhere in particular. My legs stopped when I reached the outside where I immediately got soaked so I began looking for a taxi. My nerves made my hands twich as I frantically looked around the parking lot until I spotted a yellow cab. My legs ran toward it and got in once I reached it. I told him my address and watched the hospital gradually become smaller the farther I got away from it and soon enough it faded away just like the rest of the ride home.