Can You Save Me? { Sam Pottorff }

Chapter 50 ~ I can't be selfish.

Marley's P.O.V.

I open the front door and am greeted with a huge hug from Aimee.

"I missed you." She says as I hug her, pushing her back so that I can close the door.

"I been gone for a few hours princess." I laugh and set the bags down and the table to pick her up. "What happened?" She has that sad look on her face. I carry her into the living room and sit down next to James with her on my lap. "Aimee.." I poke her nose. "Wait, where's.."

"Upstairs." He answers me.

"Mommy told me to wait here with James. She won't stop crying Molly." She pouts and I rest her head on my shoulder.

"It all happened so fast." He doesn't take his eyes off of his hands. "It's about him." He whispers. "I'm sorry Marley, I really am." He looks up with red eyes.

I know that he knows how I feel sometimes. Especially when it comes to him. Except I actually knew my dad. At least I thought I did. Then I found out I didn't know much at all.

"Aimee, I need you to stay here with James." I try to pull her off me but she wraps her small arms around me tighter.

"No, no please Molly, stay with me." She pleas, making my heart sink.. "Please don't."

"I need to go check on mommy, Aimee. James is right here. He'll take care of you." I kiss the top of her head and try to pull her away again. "Meemee please." I know I can easily pull her off, but I would never. Not when she's like this.

She loosens her grip and looks up at me with teary eyes. "I'm scared."

"You don't need to be Aimee." I kiss her cheek and she nods. "James is going to take care of you okay." I hand her to James and she clings on to him for dear life. "Thank you James." I put my hand on his shoulder, trying to get the strength to stand up. I finally get on my feet and begin to walk to the doorway.

"Don't cry Aimee." I hear James whisper to her. "I'm going to tell you a story about two little boys that thought they lost everything." That's all it takes for me to lose the only thing keeping me back from crying today.

I really have to climb up the stairs. My heart aching with every step. I walk along the wall to the only wide open door, that's my mom's room.

I walk in to see Jazmin sitting on the floor against the bed with her face in her hands. I look up and see my mom laying on the bed, covered with a blanket, facing away. The floor creeks under my foot and Jazmin's head snaps up. She rushes to her feet and closes the space between us, wrapping her arms around me.

She pushes me out of the room and into mine across the hall. I close the door behind me and just cry into her shoulder.

I don't know how long it was before we ended up on the floor. Her still clinging to me. Letting me cry more and more. I squeeze her closer to me. Needing her. She's my rock. She keeps me together. She makes me feel less broken. I'm broken.

"I'm not going anywhere Marley." She holds me tighter. "Do you hear me Marley. I am not going anywhere." I nod into her shoulder but can't stop the tears from coming.

I could never have her leave. She can't leave me. I won't let her. I need her. More than she could ever need me. She keeps me from losing my mind.

"Please. Please. Please. Please. Please."

"Marley, it's okay." She whispers in my ear. "I know you miss him." I hug her impossibly tighter. "I know you're hurting. I know it hurts."

"Why?" I know I won't get an answer, but I ask anyways.