Can You Save Me? { Sam Pottorff }

Chapter 65 ~ stupid idea

Sam's P.O.V.

"You have to tell them." Jc says for the hundredth time.

"So?" I respond for the hundredth time.

"Sam, I swear if you don't in the next few minutes, I will." He threatens and I shrug.

"I already tried." I lie.

"You called her and yelled. That doesn't seem like trying." Jc has never been this mad at me. It's weird that I couldn't care less. "Sam, seriously! What is wrong with you? You have to tell them."

"I don't owe them anything." I look away from him and focus on my phone. "Leave me alone."

"Are you fucking kidding me, Sam? They didn't do shit to you! James needs to know." He continues to give me reasons of why I should call them again. "James really didn't do shit to you though."

"I called, Jc." I snap. "She didn't answer. Marley did. He started making excu-"

"Excuses? I'm sure it was the truth. You're in denial Sam. Get over yourself, call James and tell him, and get help. I am so tired of you being this way. We all are." He was completely in my face as he spoke. When he walks of, I see that he's restraining himself form something. Probably from hitting me. I wish he would. It'd make me feel better, I think.

"Yeah?" I hear Jc from down the hall. He's walking into his room when I hear him say Hi.

"Jc, what the fuck!" I walk to his room and he slams the door in my face but doesn't lock it. "What are you doing?"

"I know you weren't going to call him." He says to me and then begins to talk to James. I'm almost positive it's him. "Yeah, yeah.. I'm pretty sure. It's something right?" I watch as Jc fills James on some things I told him. I force myself to keep my mouth shut. "I don't want to tell you the rest over the phone. Can we meet somewhere right now? Oh.. uh.. yeah Okay. I'll be there soon."

"Where are you going?" I ask him when he picks up his keys.

"Doing what you should have done, Sam." He stops in the doorway and turns to me. "What do you get out of this? Out of being an asshole no one wants to be around? Seriously, we want Sam back."

"Sam can't come back." I say long after he's left.

Just my luck. Kian was outside Jc's door when I said it. He tries to smile at me, but he knows I won't believe it.

"You told him, didn't you?"

"Sorta." I shrug.

"Sam, I can't tell you that you'll get her back the way you want.. But isn't one way better than no way? This could have been the thing to make something good happen between all of you. I'm sure you thought of it.. So why didn't you take the chance?"

"I don't want her in any other way." I sigh. "You and Andrea are the power couple. I always wanted someone to love me the way she loves you.. I thought I finally found that. Fidning out that you were wrong.. Kian, it sucks."

"Yeah, it does." He nods. "But are you really going to let this rule you forever?"

"I hate what she did." I rub my eyes, trying to get the images of the two of them together out.

"She didn't do anything bad, Sam.. Remember that she isn't Acacia.." He says and it all goes white.

I haven't been comparing her to Acacia.. Have I? No matter what happened, she couldn't have been as bad as Acacia. But then.. why am I treating her like this? I gave Acacia more than one chance.. What have I given Jazmin? Nothing? I wouldn't even let her explain. I didn't stick around for what could have been the truth... But to be honest with myself, any truth I get will hurt. Is this just my way of purposely hating her so that I can push her away more easily? Telling myself she did all these bad things so I'm not tempted to look at her again? God, I'm an idiot.