Can You Save Me? { Sam Pottorff }

Chapter 70 ~ So crazy obsessed.

Sam's P.O.V.

I let her pull me through the crowd of already wasted people. We walk into what I think would be the living room as everyone begins to chant the word chug towards a girl standing on a chair with a big bottle of who knows what in her hand.

"Take a shot with me." She grabs two small shot glasses from a table. She hands one to me and I hesitate to take it. I haven't drank in a while and I thought it'd be nice to get my mind off things, but I'm not sure this is the way to go. "I won't tell your unfun girlfriend, Sammy boy."

"Whatever." I bring it to my lips and tilt my head back. I instantly feel the burn and I close my eyes as the feeling passes. "Holy shit, what was that?" I can still feel the heat around my neck.

"I have no idea." She laughs and finds two more. She drinks hers quickly and slams it back onto the table. "But I swear to god I needed it."

She keeps giving me things to drink and the more that I drink them, the less bad I feel about it. Jazmin always told me how drinking was a sensitive thing in her family and that she didn't like it at all. It made me not want to ever look, smell, touch alcohol again because of the pain I saw in her eyes. Thinking of her makes me pick up another drink. I really can't tell what anything is. The only thing I know is that it's burning my insides and making me forget her and the other shit.

"Seriously, what did she do to piss you off so much?" She asks me. Does she not know? It's been a while since Jazmin hooked up with Marley, but all Emma has said represents them still being just friends and Jazmin not letting her speak to him. She must not know. I think she would been a lot more pissed than she is. I am not sure if I should be the one to tell her. What'd she do? Say? Think? God, why do I even care.

I pretend like I didn't hear her question. "So you're Jenn's cousin?"

"Step cousin?" She tucks her hair behind her ear. "It's complicated. We met a couple years ago. I probably know her just as much as you do."

"Maybe." I shrug. "Why'd you want me to come again?" I can't remember our conversations from earlier. I'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing.

"I don't know." Her smile is small. "I'm just really pissed. You looked really pissed. Why not be pissed together and drink our stupid ass problems away."

"Why are you pissed?" I still don't know if I actually care or if I'm just trying to make conversation, but then why would I want to make conversation with her in the first place. so I may care to some extant?

"I know I fucked up with the whole Ricky and Marley and all that shit in the beginning. But Marley has.. I don't know.. He was always there for me before. I miss that." She looks sad talking about it. She looks as if she might cry. I hope that she won't say any more, but just as it crosses my mind she opens her mouth. "You know how hard it is to be living in someone's shadow?" Yes, I actually do. "Really fucking hard. I will never be good enough or close to being better to her. She stole my friends and everything else I had. She was always asking for it. No one would have done anything if she wasn't so damn perfect." I want to interrupt her, but I don't know what to say. I have no reason to defend Jazmin anymore, so why waste my breath. "Marley was always nice to me, but he didn't hesitate to choose her over me. It's sad, but I still hope to able to make things right between him and I. He just won't let me talk to him. She won't either. It's like them against everyone else. James is hardly around them anymore. I don't know what she's doing. God, even Tyler. He won't look at me anymore. Yes, Tyler. He was the only person I really had left that was on my side. He hates me now, and I have no clue why. I don't fucking understand anything. I want everything to go back to normal." She puts her face in her hands and let's out a giant sigh.