DRABBLES AND SERIES [ jinbyul ]

how far

prompt: Insecure Couple
request by: YakushinPrincessRave

TRIGGER WARNING: suicidal thoughts, scenes and conversations. please be aware.
note: please know that this is just purely based on fictional events, i hope no one will be offended nor affected in this one-shot. read on! ^^

"i'll do better." she whispers when she received a scolding, faking her smile- ah no, she can't smile too much. so she kept her neutral face.

early 2015.

she can clearly remember it. that night when she first encountered him.

it was almost the night when she almost let go of the reality to face an endless dream.

promotion, radio shows, mistreatment, negligence of her. she used to dream that it's a light path, she'll be able to sing her heart out, but failed miserably on her first planned debut.

but now she's here, but she felt invisible too. holding the microphone, tapping her fingers on the mic takes more of her time than her part to perform, to rap- something she's been struggling with before succeeding.

she became voiceless even if she can speak.

she made it all up for her personality in front of the camera even if all she wanted was to perform, but she became like a shadow.

it came whispering to her every night, that even if she disappears, none of it would matter. the rest would have to make up an adlib for maybe for twenty seconds and it's all done, so why should she try?

it keeps haunting her.

she loves her members so much, but sometimes, it just gets loud.

the voice grew loud that night, she's trembling. she didn't even had the time to take her medicine, they were too small at that moment that a proper check-up wasn't given to any of them. she was feeling the breeze of the cold night air, spreading her arms wide while closing her eyes.

she can still remember it. when she lost her consciousness, letting the gravity decide for her fortune, taking a sip of the air one last time, about to push herself at the edge of the building.

then someone pulled her.

he pulled her back.

a faint gasp escaped her lips, tumbling back on the ground of the rooftop, head hitting on his chest while hearing a loud grunt, heavy pants.

"thank god."

that was the first word he had told, it still rings in her ears. then her consciousness snaps back at that time, lifting her head up to look at who had the time to check her up, only to find out that it was someone that will make her feel so many things in the near future.

kim seokjin from bangtan.

eyes widening at the disruption she caused, she pushed him away out of panic, hearing him whisper. "hey, calm down- i'm not going to hurt you-"

those words, became so comforting. she knew that it's genuine since it came from someone she's not even familiar with. tilting her head without saying any word, she covers her face immediately. "i know things are rough but please-" he insisted, grabbing her shoulder, trying to get a glimpse of her face.

"we can talk about it if you need someone, i-" he panted. "don't jump, you'll kill yourself." he whispers out of concern.

she didn't moved, didn't talk. she didn't even tried to get away since her legs were too weak, it feels like jelly. she instead shook her head, sobbing softly.