SOULMATES ( A HAIKYUU MULTIPLE X FEM READER )

Chapter 68: THE SPRING TOURNAMENT IS OFFICIALLY UNDERWAY!

Not possible, no way. But like if he did... NO, STOP. I mean it wouldn't be the end of the world if he did like me. He is handsome, and soooo sweet, I mean to me at least, and WAIT. DO I LIKE TOBI? HUHHHHHHH? WHEN THE? WHO THE? WHAT THE? UGHHHHHHHH. I looked at the time, 3AM. I have four hours and thirty minutes before I have to be up to get ready to be on the bus. I need to sleep. Okay I'm going to sleep now. Still going to sleep now. AAAAND SLEEP. AAAAAAAAND SLEEP. GO. TO. SLEEP. (P/N). ugghhhh. It was no use. Thoughts of me and Tobi kept wandering around in my head. He'd definitely be an amazing boyfriend. And I'd be a great girlfriend. We could be so good together. Everyone already thinks we're dating so it wouldn't be a surprise. I'd be very supportive, go to all of his games, we'd graduate high school together and then.... it would blow up in my face just like it did with Tooru. I sighed. That's right. I'm (P/N), and when I love someone they leave. And Tobi, he can't leave. Got it. This...this is hopeless. He'll never be your boyfriend. But you know what, that's okay. Because as long as he's never your boyfriend, he'll always be your best friend. Boyfriend *sighs* It was the night of our best friend date that it happened. (Chapter 23 ;) )   That was the day I saw him as something more, as a boy, instead of as just Tobi my best friend. I don't know when it happened, but I slowly began to get these feelings for him. No more volleyball players. No more volleyball players. My own words echoed in my head this time. I was right in the right headspace back then. No more volleyball players. It was a solid rule, a simple one too. I couldn't. This was one boundary I just couldn't cross. But I.. I want to so bad. I went to bed that night at some uncertain time. All I know was when my alarm went it off, it definitely wasn't a nice time. UGHHHHHHHH. I got dressed and walked downstairs on the bus.

K: You miss breakfast, are you alright?

Tanaka: Geez (P/N), what happened.  You look like you got hit by a bus.

UGHHHHHHHH. "Less talking. More walking."

K: Did you get any sleep last night?

"Barely."

K: Why?

What am I supposed to say? I stayed up half the night fantasizing about us being together, and then spent the other half telling myself all the reasons it wouldn't work. "Oh you know, those pre-national nerves."

H: Don't worry (P/N). There's nothing to be nervous about. We got this. We're going to win!

Hinata gave me a thumbs up and a big smile. The bags under my eyes may have looked horrible, but today they were my newest accessory. I smiled at my favorite oranged hair ball of sunshine. "Thank you Hinata.We better get going. The bus is loaded." And get going we did because a short 20 minute drive later we were at the Tokyo Metropolitan City Gym.

K: Hey, we'll be okay. No need to worry.

Tobi was going to grab my hand to comfort me the way he always did, but I pulled it away. I gave him a nervous laugh and smiled. "Sorry. I guess I really am on edge."

K: Okay?

Even though we kept waking Tobi never stopped looking at my hang. With every step he looked at it and made a face at it. He was staring so hard I could feel how much he wanted to hold on to it. First it started off almost like a glare, then it transitioned to a confused look, almost like when he was looking at his English homework. After that it was just a pout. Awwwwww. So precious.

"Tobi."

K: Yeah?

I reached out the hand he was making faces at. "Do you want to hold my hand?" He didn't make any moves, he just blushed a little. I giggled."It's okay. I won't pull away again. Promise." Tobi grabbed my hand and interlaced our fingers. I knew he was nervous from how tight he was holding on, but whenever I rubbed my thumb against his hand he seemed to calm down. This was our dynamic. We were just supporting each other. We didn't like each other, only as friends. We took our steps inside and found our spot. The boys changed into their uniforms for the opening ceremony. Seeing as we still had time, the boys went off to explore. "Don't wander off too far boys, oh and try not to get into too much trouble."