SOULMATES ( A HAIKYUU MULTIPLE X FEM READER )

Chapter 52: LOOK WHAT I GOT YOU

I woke up to the sound of snickering and a light snoring. "Aiko.. go away."

A: How do you know it's me?

"I don't remember that last time Hedge giggled, but besides that he's also probably still asleep. Whatever prank you pulled or picture you took, delete it." I snuggled deeper into Bokuto's chest and wrapped the blanket tighter around us.

A: You're already up, don't go back to bed. Keep me company.

One eye, that's all she gets. I popped that one eye open to see her still on the other coach laying in Hajime's arms. I shut my eye again."You're still in bed. Why are you complaining?"

A: Your brother is holding me captive and I can't go back to sleep.

"So because you can't sleep you're not gonna let me?"

A: What else are friends for?

"Ughhhhhhh"

A: You live here rent free for two nights. It's time to pay the piper.

Bokuto's arms were still wrapped around me, preventing me from leaving or sitting up. His breathing was slow and with every exhale a little snore escaped his lips blowing a breath onto my face. I giggled. I looked up at his peaceful face, still sleeping and dreaming of whatever nonsense his subconscious had concocted. My head was still on Bokuto's chest. I had an ear placed on his heart. "You know, for such a hyperactive boy, I would've thought his heart would've beat quicker than the rest of ours."

A: (P/N), I say this because I love you. You're a freak.

"Says the girl who woke me up so we can sit and talk in bed."

A: Well you're leaving today. When else am I supposed to do it?

"Hey Aiko, that night....did I tell you what really happened with Kuroo?"

A: Um

"It's okay, you don't have to lie to me. I'm trying to piece it together. Tooru knows. I overheard him tell Kuroo when he came to apologize. Apparently I told Tooru the night before and by your reaction I must've told you too. So now I guess the bigger question is, does Hedge know?"

A: You think Hajime would've let Kuroo live today if he knew?

"I guess you're right."

A: (P/N), I love you so much. You're my best friend, but what you're doing is toxic. Keeping that all in to protect some guy who-

"Aiko....don't."

*sigh* A: I see that you're trying, and I am so proud of you, but why protect him? He doesn't deserve it.

"It's not about him anymore. I don't think it ever was. At first I was ashamed. I thought I was the girl that couldn't hold onto her boyfriend. But I think now I'm realizing what it really was. I don't want to protect him. I want to hurt him as bad as he hurt me, but I can't. I can't live my life with the purpose of destroying someone else's. I can't give my power away, because then, it isn't my life anymore, it's his. What I want to protect is the relationship that we had and all the memories we made. It was my first one, and Testu, he was my first love. Yes it ended badly, but should that mean I have to throw out six months of happiness. He's not a bad person, he just did a bad thing, and I forgive him for it. I let him go, because I deserve to move on. I deserve to be happy. That's why I wanted Bokuto to be friends with him again, and that's why I don't want this getting out of hand. I just want it all to end." Build the wall. Build it higher. Build it so she can't see the truth. I'm protecting Kuroo, because it was all my fault. He cheated on me because I wasn't enough, because I chose someone else time and time again. It was me. It's always me.