SOULMATES ( A HAIKYUU MULTIPLE X FEM READER )

Chapter 80: THAT'S IT, JUST BREATHE

A/N: I'm going to preface this chapter by saying it is officially my favorite one yet, because this is something that I and many others personally deal with, so be nice. If you at all feel triggered please don't feel like you have to keep reading and if you want to talk about it please, please, please, message me because sometimes you just need someone who gets it. Also these are real techniques that can be used if you have any other helpful hints make sure to mention them! The last thing I have to say is BOKUTO STANS, COME GET YOUR FOOD.

NOPE. I CAN'T DO THIS. I CAN'T DO THIS. I CAN'T DO THIS. WHO LET ME ON THIS STUPID TRAIN. THOSE MORANS I CALLED FRIENDS REALLY DIDN'T TALK ME OUT OF THIS. IDIOTS. Everything was going wrong. I was looking over my notes and none of them made sense. It's like they were all in a different language. That might have been because they were in a different language. English, stupid freakin english. What kind of country has three different versions of a word that all sounded the same. I'm not just talking about too, to, and two, but there, their, and they're. OKAY LET'S SWITCH TO MATH. QUESTION MARKS ALL AROUND. MAGNIFICENT. AIKO, I'LL CALL AIKO, SHE'S SUPPOSED TO HAVE MET ME OUTSIDE SO I COULD THROW MY BAG AND KEEP GOING.  NOT PICKING UP. THE WORLD IS OFFICIAL ON FIRE, AND I AM IN A WIDE EMPTY DESERT WITH NO WATER TO PUT IT OUT.

??: Um ma'am you can exit the cart now.

"Okay thank you!" I'm actually physically dead.

B: (P/N)! HEY, HEY, HEY!

Great! And now I'm hallucinating. Perfect. I just have to calm down and everything will be alright. Just breathe. Take a deep breath and CALM. - WHY THE HELL DOES THIS HALLUCINATION REFUSE TO GO AWAY? When Bokuto grabbed my shoulders I realized the hallucation wasn't a hallucination at all, but instead my guardian angel.

B: Hey (P/N)! Couldn't you hear me? I was calling your name really loud.

"Oh I'm sorry Bo! What are you doing here?"

B: Today's the big day! I thought I would surprise you and grab your bag for you! This way you wouldn't have to waste any time going to Aiko's house in between.

"Is Aiko here, she's so supposed to be here."

I hadn't realized but Bokuto had led us to the subway.

B: (P/N), are you okay?

"I- I um- I."  My eyes began to fill with tears. "Where is Aiko, I need Aiko." My breathing started to get heavy. Not now. Not here. Not in front of everyone. Not in front of Bokuto. I can't do this. I can't do this.

B: (P/N), talk to me. Tell me what's wrong.

"We're getting closer and I don't know anything and I don't know where Aiko is and I - I can't do this."

B: Hey (P/N), what's your favorite color?

"I-um- I- I don't know."

B: Okay, okay, that's fine. You know what mine is?

"What?"

B: White. I like it cause it can become any color it wants. I like it because it's kind of like the stars you know, it makes everything a little lighter, even a dark color like black.

"Stars?"

B: Yup, you remember the stars right and how we talked about them that one night? It's okay if you don't.

"I - I do."

B: That makes me happy. That was one of my favorite moments with you.

"Yeah..., mine too."

B: Hey (P/N), I know you're so smart, but can you tell me five things you can see? Any five things?

"I see um, you and um the floor and um people, lots of people."